I will always be there PART 1

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When I woke up the next day. I knew Monoma was gone. I felt so empty for that and most of all,worried for his safety.
It's Saturday so I don't need to go anywhere but I don't want to wast my time in here. I get up and put on a Hoodie, put Mittens in my pocket and get out.
As I walk to the kitchen I already feel the smell of coffee. As I get in I see Midoria at the coffee maker, he turns around and looks at me and jumps in shock.
"Oh Shinsou, d-didn't see you there b-buddy"
He says and I give him a look.
I give him a nod and grab a mug.
He hells up for me and then himself.
"So Umm, you sleep well?"
He asks as I sip of my coffee.
"Well, I didn't sleep, to much to think about. Something...personal"
He looks up at me, well literally as I'm very much taller then him.
"That's not good, if you don't sleep you won't be the best of your self" he then slowly starts to ramble on. I tap him on the shoulder to make him stop.
He looks up at me and gives an awkward smile.
"Sorry, I really thought I had gotten over that"
He says and scratch the back of his neck.
"Old habits die hard"
I say and down the coffee and gets a another one.
My mind was all over the place after last night's talk with Monoma.

Everything he said, everything he did. Lying multiple times to just say that, why? I don't say it's nothing much.
It's way bigger then my own problems. Now that I think about it. He must hate that I hurt myself with my parents not understanding my feelings and he lost his own in front of his eyes and will maybe face those people again? I'm an idiot! How can I be so selfish?! I should have asked, was I just was too lazy to ask?
He must hate me, right? And now I maybe never know, maybe he'll die. Maybe he already is. Maybe—

"Shinsou, you're zoning out"
I get out of my thoughts and look to me just lean to the counter with my half empty mug in hand.
"Sorry..."
He looks up at me and laughs softly.
"You don't need to apologize for something like that"

He's right. Wait, do I do that all the time? Why didn't I notice that before?! Why did nobody ever say anything about it before, or did they and I didn't listen?!

"Hey Shinsou, wanna hang out. I'm going to town and thought I would bring you?"

I look behind me to see Denki.
I let out a sigh of relief to get those thoughts out.
What is going on?

"Yeah, sure. I would love to" I say and his face lit up. He drags me away happy and I hear a quick
"Have fun" From Midoria.
As we start walking out of the UA ground he's holding my hand. I just hold it back as I didn't know what else to do.
"Soooo, Denki, what's on your mind for us?"
I ask as the silence is killing me. "Well I thought we could take a stroll around the park, if you want to. I just thought you looked uncomfortable with Deku so I thought I would help you out. I look at his sun yellow eyes steer clear at me with a smile.
We smiled at each other and walked down to the park.
It was huge and in the early hours of the day, dead quiet. We strolled down at the lake. The only sounds were our footsteps and the birds in the water.
We soon sat down at a nearby bench. Denki slowly puts he's head on my shoulder. I didn't move and did absolutely not know what to say.

"It's nice here isn't it?"
He say as he looks at me.
I swallow and look down at him.
"Y-yes it lovely"
I say and he gives me a chuckle.
(Shit not this...do I say sorry-no. No sorry's!)

"This is why I like you Shinsou, your so sweet"