Fervent Keeper (FK Series #3)

Kabanata 31

Umiling iling ako habang hawak ang phone ko. This isn't my Lander, right?

Pain started to stuck inside my chest. I refused to believe it! Hindi siya 'yan e.

Angela hugged me when I began crying. "A..." I wept harder. "H-Hindi siya 'yan..." Nanlalabo ang paningin ko. "L-Lander won't ever do that. Kilala ko siya."

"You have to talk to him."

"I don't want to see him."

"But you have to. He's your boyfriend. You need to know the truth. Nandito lang naman kami."

I tired to calm myself. My legs grew weak as I tried to stand up from my bed. Nang makatayo ay dumiretso ako sa banyo. It was so hard... because flashes of the pictures I saw a while ago kept flowing on my mind. I framed my face for endlessly crying.

I was the happiest when I am with him, but I never imagined love could be this destructive.

Nang makababa ay naabutan ko si Kenneth na nag-aalmusal.

"I told you your boyfriend's a piece of shit. If you only listened to me, you won't get hurt."

I clenched my first and ignored my brother. I tried to function normally that day. I went to my work depsite of my a heavy heart. Nakatanggap ako ng sunod sunod na tawag at mensahe kay Lander, pero lahat iyon ay ay hindi ko binuksan. I also turned off my phone to get rid of him from my mind just this time.

I focused on my work. I didn't know how I was able to survive the day as if nothing was bothering me.

I distracted myself. Kahit ang bumili ng coffee ng mga kasama ko ay ginawa ko kahit hindi kasama sa trabaho ko. I replied to all the inquiries from our official page and email. I also started to write articles for fashion and entertaining blog. This wasn't what I actually wanted to do because a part of it had a heart to report on tv and voice out the truth, however I still couldn't do it for now. I'm sure I'd be able to do it if I am given the chance to do so.

The rest of the day was productive. Kia was looking at me, like she wanted to ask me questions. I'm sure she saw the trend.

"Go on, ask me," I told her as I sipped my coffee.

"Sorry. Pero, true ba?" she asked. "Like legit?"

"I don't know. I don't want to talk about him right now," sagot ko.

"You have to confront him about the issue, Monica. Don't pretend that it's okay when I know you're breaking apart. Just let me know if you need my help," aniya. Napangiti naman ako.

I sighed for the last time when I finished all my tasks. Hindi ko na napansin na nag-O.T na pala ako. Kia left already and the others. I turned off my computer and organized my desk before I went outside the building.

I turned on my phone and just as I expected, there were lots of messages from him. My friends were also worried of me. They're asking me when would I be able to meet them, hindi ko na lang muna sinagot.

Nag-grab ako papuntang MOA seaside. I wanted to clear my head. I brought some snacks with me when I sat down. I couldn't imagine there would be a day like this alone, pondering about things in life.

I was a good girlfriend to him. Woman was never an issue on us in the two months of our relationship. He was loyal. He was the best boyfriend I could ask for. He was there for me, all the time. He makes me smile, he's my sunshine and dark clouds. At, ang hirap isipin na isang litrato lang ang sisira ng itinayo naming pundasyon sa relasyon namin. We trusted each other so much. What went wrong?

I wiped my tears right away before it could run on my face.

I stared at the vast sea. It's calming and soothing to watch. Kahit papano ay gumaan ang pakiramdam ko.