Fervent Keeper (FK Series #3)

Kabanata 32

He sat in front of me. I thought I was hallucinating, but here he was giving me a warm smile like nothing happened.

"Hello." I greeted back. "How are you?"

"I'm good. Ikaw?"

I didn't want to cry right now, but I was betrayed by my body because I did. Lander noticed me and he looked worried of me.

"I-I'm okay..." My voice cracked. "I'm sorry for everything, Lander."

"Let's talk somewhere else. Is it okay with you?"

I slowly nodded. Sumunod ako sa kanya nang tumayo siya. He motioned me to get in his car so I did.

There was an awkward silence when we we were inside. I released a sigh before I turned to him.

"Lander."

"Farrah."

Sabay na kaming sabi.

"Go ahead," aniya.

"I don't know how to start..." I bit my lower lip and looked at him. "I'm sorry for hurting you."

It tortured me when I saw him last time lying helpless and broke.

He pulled me closer to him. I closed my eyes tight and buried my face in the warmth of his chest. Naramdaman ko ang mahinang tapik sa aking likod. His arms were around me now.

It felt nice... to be back again his arms. All the worries, pain, and shyness were vanished in an instant. His warmth was more than enough to soothe the shattered pieces I had.

"Do not be sorry when you didn't anything wrong."

Inangat ko ang aking ulo para matingnan siya.

"What I'm saying is that it's not your fault."

"Why are you selfless?" I couldn't help but to ask. People has been judging him indifferently. They don't have any idea of how nice this person is.

He chuckled. "Silly. But, seriously, don't beat up yourself for something you didn't do."

"My brother hurt you."

"I deserve it."

"You don't. Ikaw rin naman, wala kang ginawang masama. Stop owning the mistake you told me you didn't do."

He sighed. "But, I did. I hurt you."

He slowly let go of me. "I promised to you that I'd never do anything to make you sad. When we started this, I vowed to make you happy."

"Lander..."

"And... I failed." He continued as his eyes were locked on me.

"Don't say that. I'm happy. We were happy with each other."

"But, it's not enough if you're doubting me, Farrah."

"I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault," he muttered under his breath. He stared at me as if he was memorizing every inch of my face.

"Do you still want to continue this?" He asked, serious.

"I do. I can't spend another days without you. No'ng hindi kita kasama... hirap na hirap ako..."

He cupped my face. "Ako rin. Sobra. The days without you were empty, Farrah. Kahit gusto kitang makita o puntahan, hindi ko ginawa kasi nirerespeto kita. You wanted space and I gave it. Now, I'd like to ask you, is this still worthy?"

Instead of answering, I asked him a question. "What do you mean? Do you want to stop this?"

Umiling siya. "No. I love you so much that I cannot afford to lose you." He started trailing kisses on the bridge of my nose and forehead. "I fucking miss you so much."