Fervent Keeper (FK Series #3)

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Falling in love is scary. To fall in love requires us to recognize the feeling of longing which can render us emotionally attached and exposed. No wonder why people like me finds it scary to fall in love. Would you believe I was one thought of fairy tale story where I would meet a man who would offer me the moon and stars, his everything only to find out that's nowhere to reality?

I'm turning twenty next month but I never had boyfriend. NBSB as what they said. But I was never bothered. Not that I was hurt or anything, it's just that I don't want to engage myself in relationships. The idea of commitment alone is toxic for me. I didn't think I had the right emotional tools to trust a guy or even fall in love. My cousin's heart breaks also scarred me. I don't want to experience that. Minsan nakakapagod lang din 'yung paulit ulit na pressure ng ibang tao. They would always ask me, kailan ka ba magkaka-boyfriend? As if that's a trophy to have one. Tapos, sasabihan pa ako minsan kung mag-mamadre raw ba ako o hindi kaya tomboy. The hell?

Not being in a relationship doesn't mean you're lonely.

I felt like all my energy was drained today after the exam. Grabe naman kasi. I'm actually pursuing journalism. Yes, ever since I was a kid I really liked writing. It's a hobby also and at the same time it's something I'm passionate about.

For the next month, I would be starting my internship with OrangeBug company. I already submitted my requirements.

Angela waved at me as soon as she saw me. Papunta ako ng cafeteria para makipagkita sa kanya. She was with our friend, Neo. Neo is your typical player. The cassanova type who made you feel special as their woman but unfortunately guys like him are afraid of commitments and won't settle down. Maghahanap pa sila ng iba, pagsasabayin kayo or worst is madaling magpalit. Sounds asshole, right?

He flirted with me for several times. As if I am the type who easily gets in.

"Hey," he greeted me.

"Hi," I greeted back.

"What do you want, baby?" I almost scowled at it.

"Stop." I glared at him.

Angela was on the counter buying for our foods. Naiwan pa talaga kami rito. I'm cool with him naman. He's nice but he's still a player. Guys like him gives me reasons also not to be in a relationship. Okay na akong single forever. Basta, free from heart aches and pain.

"Why?"

I nudged him. "You're annoying."

He laughed and played with his lips. "I'm not doing anything."

I rolled my eyes. When Angela came in, she sat beside me.

"Nilalandi mo na naman pinsan ko." Angela squinted on Neo.

"Sanay na sa 'kin 'yan." He flashed a smile.

"Yeah, right. Immune na 'tong si Mon sa mga lalaki. I can't even recall when was the last time she had a crush. 13 pa yata tayo no'n. Yael name no'n, hindi ba? 'Yung first love naman niya taken na. How sad."

I turned to her. "Tagal na no'n. I haven't heard from them."

Yael was my first crush. I saw him one day when I was with my dog on the park. I thought I lost my baby when he found it. I was actually touched how he petted my dog. And on that moment, I developed a huge crush on him. But I found out that their family moved away so I never heard any news about him since the.

My first love, Ray was our neighbor and my classmate when I was in highschool. He was so nice and playful. He cracked jokes at me and would always help me with my assignment. I knew how I sucked sometimes when it comes to Academic so he has been a great help for me. We became friends but he became my first heart break when he pursued another girl from our class and they became a couple. That left me out of the picture.