CLOUDED ➣ JINKOOK ✓

THIRTY

 What if Namjoon is right?

Though, Seokjin doesn't want to think about that right now.

It's a bit too late to think about that now. He can feel guilty in the passing time. Dwell over the words he exchanged to his brother, who has only wanted the best for him.

Fourteen missed calls and seventeen unread messages, and that's from today alone.

Yeah. It's a little too late to go back home now.

He's way too stubborn for that anyway. He doesn't want Namjoon to be right, and he won't let the older be right.

Twenty-three, and he's never made his own choices.

Where he went to school, the career he has to pursue was chosen by his parents. Who he talks to and the friendships he maintains are all overseen by his big brother.

How he looks and how he acts.

It's always "Seokjin be nice. Be polite and gentle," and then the shock and surprise on everyone's faces when he's treated like a doormat.

Seokjin, who is too feeble to do anything on his own, has to have his brother and his brother's friends watch after him at all times.

Because Seokjin is too innocent and naive for his own good. Seokjin can't do anything because of a mistake made when he was sixteen.

He's never had much of a choice or thoughts of his own, and he's sick of it.

And now he's being told Jeongguk is no good for him. Whatever the hell that means.

He's having a hard time seeing Jeongguk as the villain everyone is making him out to be. All he can see is those big round eyes, rabbit-like teeth that show when he grins. Jeongguk is all wrapped up in that bad-boy facade, and he can see right through him.

Or maybe he's just naive like Namjoon said.

He doesn't care anyway. He wants to learn how to do things on his own.

That starts with not going back home... At least not now, that is. Not like Namjoon would let him come back anyway.

It starts with letting people like Jeongguk in his life. People that could give less of fuck about what people think. Someone he has always aspired to be.

He'll learn his lesson in due time on his own if there even is one.

Seokjin puts his phone on do not disturb before tossing it onto the nightstand and lying beside Jeongguk.

He lets his eyes shut for a moment before rolling to his side, his gaze shifting to the older sitting beside him.

"I feel like we don't know much about each other, no?" Seokjin blurts out.

It's not what he had intended on starting a conversation, and from the way Jeongguk pauses, he doesn't think he should've.

The older eyes peer up from the device in his hand. "What are you asking me right now?" He questions roughly with a frown.

"I want to get to know you better," he mutters, unconsciously biting at his bottom lip as he waits for the older's response.

"You know me. You know enough," Jeongguk firmly states with a blank stare.

"What if I just wanted us to be closer?" The younger timidly asks.

"Then don't," Jeongguk says, straight to the point.

Seokjin shrinks into himself at the older's tone. Jeongguk's dark eyes stare into his unamused.

"Oh," he mutters. "I'm sorry. I wasn't trying to pressure you to talk or anything. I just thought—"

"My life doesn't matter. Anything that happened in the past doesn't matter—"

A frown pulls onto the younger's face as he places a comforting hand on top of Jeongguk's. "That isn't true—"

Jeongguk pulls out of the younger's touch. "I don't want to talk about it, Seokjin," He says firmly.

Seokjin looked into the older's eyes, with no trace of sadness or anger. There was nothing.

"Okay, I understand," the younger mutters.

"I don't want to ruin things. The more you find out about me, the more you'll hate me like everyone else," Jeongguk says. He says it as if it was just normal for him.

Has everyone always really treated him like this?

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a/n:  omg hi so im back lol 

i was planning on updating regularly again but my now fiance proposed last monday. the whole past couple of days have been crazy... like dinners with his extended family and talks about our wedding. its been a lot.. and i'm only 20 so aaaaa

just be patient with me for a bit. i promise i will try my best to keep pumping out good work for you guys! 

also thank you to everyone who congratulated me on my engagment. i finally got back to everyone and i hope i responded to every message. i really appreciate it. 

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