Dysphoria

Chapter Thirty One

Fez tried to talk me out of going to the party knowing this shit was about to blow up.

"This could get real fuckin bad. You don't wanna mess around in any more of Nate Jacobs shit." He warned me and I knew he was right. The last thing I wanted was to be dragged into the never ending chaos that was Nate Jacobs life.

"Trust me babe I know that. I don't want to get dragged into this but it's not the same for guys, you turn a blind eye to each others shit all the time. It's different for girls, it's a sisterhood thing. I can't just unsee what I saw." I wave my hand around anxiously. "Besides, they're being reckless as fuck driving around together. She's sleeping over at his house right now! Like what the fuck!"

I felt my eyes water up and I quickly wiped them away. "Poor fucking Maddy. She's literally going to be heartbroken."

"Cuz of him cheatin'?" Fez asked, reaching out to hold my hand.

"No, not cuz of him. Because of her. Its one thing when a boyfriend betrays you, it hurts one million times worse when a your best friend betrays you. A million times worse. That's shit you can never forgive." I sniff, squeezing his hand.

"Well...at least she has you. You's a way better friend. Jus be careful what you say aright." He always gave the best advice.

"I'm not going to say anything to Maddy. I don't want to pull a the pin out of that grenade at her birthday and ruin it for her. But I am going to say it to Cassie. That fucking cunt." My jaw ached from how hard I clenched my teeth. I turned to look at Fez, disgust written all over my face. "Do you know how many times Maddy poured her heart out to Cassie about Nate, I was there, I heard it all, and Cassie would fucking pretend to care and give her fake sympathy. All the while shes fucking him. It makes me sick."

"C'mon lets get you inside. This shit can wait until tomorrow." He said kindly helping me carry my stuff into the house. As I walked up to the front door he stopped to check out my car.

"Hold up. This back tire is lookin kinda flat." He bent down to study it before standing up and giving it a kick. "Yeah this shit is soft. You might gotta leak, so don't drive this tomorrow."

"Ugh fuck." I sighed, putting my keys into the door. Car troubles was the last thing I needed.

"Nah nah. Don't worry its cool, I'll drive it over to my guy tomorrow and then I'll bring you to the party." He said casually like it was nothing.

"Babe really? Are you sure?" I walk over to put my arms around him. "You really don't mind doing all that for me?"

I felt a surge of gratitude for him, that he was such a good person. That he cared for me, and wanted to make my life easier if he could.

"You can count on me. It ain't much." He said kissing the top of my head.

"It is to me." I say kissing him back. I don't know if he would ever know how much it meant to have someone as trust worthy and reliable as him in my life. I had never had it before and it was precious to me.

The following day had been hectic, we had to carefully drop my car off at the shop and deal with that. I thought it would only take an hour or two but Fez's guy said he would need a day or two to get the right tyres.

Fez dropped me home to get dressed and ready while he went to help Ash at the store for a few hours.

I took time wrapping up Maddy's gift, a beautiful pair of Versace Pillow sunglasses that I knew would look amazing on her and put them into a gift bag along with some other smaller things I had gotten her. I took out the birthday card and wrote a cute message, and as I stared at the gifts I felt like getting sick.