I didn't want it to be a huge thing at school. They offered to do a memorial service and I flat out refused. They offered me grief counseling with the guidance counselor but I didn't feel like it would do much.
Honestly I wasn't grieving the way people expected me to at the loss of a mother. But my mother didn't love me or care about me the way most other peoples did. I felt more like her caregiver than her daughter. I knew she needed me a lot more than she loved me.
As cold as it sounded, with her gone I didn't have a gaping wound in my life. I just had more free time.
But it didn't feel good having time from school and normality, it just meant more time in my own head. Plus I cared about my grades and I didn't want to have to make up a bunch of class work so it came as a big surprise when I returned to school not even a week after my mother killed herself. Literally two days after the cremation.
As much as Nate insisted he'd take me, I went to school with Kat and Maddy the next day.
He stood in the driveway next to his truck, arms folded in displeasure because I was picking them instead of him.
"I don't see why this is necessary." He said looking at my outfit. I was wearing a cute two piece set, a black pin stripe waist coat and a mini skirt with silver details.
"I really don't want to deal with Cassie losing her mind at me on my first day back to school. Lets just stay low profile for a little longer." I said leaning up and kissing him. People knew we were close, but was making him more and more annoyed that we weren't officially dating out in the open."Cassie?" He scrunched his brow. "Cassie won't do anything."
"How do you know?" I asked him.
"Cause she's scared of you." He answered like its obvious.
"And how do you know that?"
"Cause everyone knows you're a little crazy." Nate said with a little smile.
I heard a beep behind me, Kat had just pulled up.
"I hope you're right. I'll see you in a little bit." I leaned up and kissed him on the chin. "Bye."
"Morning." I said sitting into the back seat. "Thanks for picking me up. I need to get a new car."
"Hey. No problem." Maddy smiled, as if it was her doing me the favor when it was Kat who was doing all the driving. "I love this look by the way. I will be borrowing."
"Of course. Whats mine is yours." I said swiping on some lip oil. "Actually no. You cant."
"Bitch why not?" Maddy said insulted.
"Because you'll wear it, and make it look better than me!"
"Bitch shut up." She rolled her eyes, but was clearly loving the compliment. She knew she could take any of my clothes whenever she wanted. "My mom wont fucking leave me alone about college. She's been saving up for like the past twelve years so I can be the first person in our family to go. She doesn't understand when I'm like, telling her college isn't even worth it."
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Dysphoria
FanfictionA Euphoria story. When Nia comes to East Highland to escape her old life with a lot of baggage and secrets. She falls in love. She makes friends. And she makes enemies. Mature language and scenes through out. I do not own any HBO Euphoria characte...