Sing Once Again With Me

A little helping hand

Three Weeks Later

It was hot I was hot, and suffering from severe sleep deprivation and yet somehow I was enjoying the mad un organised mess my life was at the moment spending most of my time in pyjama bottoms and a vest top with Ben pretty much the same obviously men's pyjamas although these days we are both zombified enough to pick up and start wearing each others clothes. We had been able to bring the boys home just over a week ago, they had both done so well, we still had to keep an extra eye on little Teddy just to be on the safe side but the midwives, doctors and health visitors were all very pleased with him. He was so tiny they both were, wearing tiny baby sized clothes , not that they were in anything other than baby grows at the moment, it was simple and easy.

I had been able to feed them myself which I was amazed we were able to manage but it was lovely to do, I expressed when I needed to and Daddy was able to take over, Freja was a little jealous towards her two little brothers and so needed that little extra bit of loving, she seemed so big all of a sudden, it was her first birthday next week and my thirty fifth yikes that was scary. Riley and Ellie were loving playing big brother and sister all over again, Riley was such a massive help, my big boy in a few short months he would be six, it only seems like yesterday that he was the little three year old sat on that train making his way with me down to our new life. Ellie our little Princess would be going to big school after Christmas which would soon come round again.

I'm sat in the living room, Riley and Ellie with me, dishes in their lap's watching Frozen for the millionth time I swear,with a bowl of cereal to the side of me and My little Ted bear lying in my arms happily feeding I watch his brother Jamie Pie through the open doors to the kitchen he was fast asleep on Daddy's shoulder as he fed Freja in her high chair, this was how we were, thank the lord that Ben isn't back in work until September college now over for the summer, but with news on the Principal's post looming what position would he be going back to. It was no different a situation over the road for Dad and Diane their beautiful little daughter Lillibeth Ben's little sister was not a fan of sleeping, at least I was happy to say the boys would sleep cuddled up together in their basket, it could be worse.

"Sweetheart would you like some tea or orange juice" Ben asks quietly as he finishes helping Freja with her weetabix passing her some milk.

"Yes please I'll have juice darling thank you" I say as he comes tip toeing to the basket putting Jamie down to sleep wrapping him in his little blanket, not too warm but not too cold.

"Guys, hush Jamie's sleeping now OK" he says turning to Riley and Ellie and they both put their fingers to their lips to let him know yeah we've got it Dad, they were getting used to it. Ben come's over to me looking down at Teddy "Who's Daddy's hungry boy this morning hey" he says

"You are ain't you Sweetheart" I say to him

"Juice coming up for Mummy" he says to me tapping me on the nose making me smile, ah this man I married he was a wonder. I watch him tickle Freja in her high chair as he goes in the kitchen making her giggle, he cut's up banana for her Riley and Ellie bringing her to sit in the living room with us and she wasn't going to be kept far away from Daddy cuddling up to him so close as if she was afraid someone or some babies would take him away. I watch her rest against Ben picking the banana from the dish nibbling away with the few teeth she has acquired in the last few months

"Is that nice beaut" he goes to her and she gives him a big grin offering him a bite to which he takes "Mmm bit of dribble too lovely" he says making me laugh as Teddy finishes his feed and I go to put him on my shoulder

"Sweetheart would you like me to" he asks and I smile

"No I'm fine besides I think someone else is enjoying being Daddy's number one right now" I say quietly as he looks down at Freja "You got windy's for me darling" I say gently rubbing his back I was still so cautious as he was so small love him, but he was growing and would keep doing so. I hear the sound of the little burp "Good boy" I tell him as Ben smiles at him, I rest him on my chest grabbing my juice and somehow managing to take a mouthful of cereal, Teddy is soon flat out against me so I get up and pop him next to his brother to sleep, tucking them both in. I grab what's left of my breakfast as Ben puts his arm out for me to cwtch up next to him.