Sing Once Again With Me

That's one hell of an apology

By the time we arrive home it's late and the kiddies were flat out, Gran had come up with the idea of putting them in their pyjamas at the last stop we made for Ben to get petrol so it was basically a case of popping them into bed when we got in, well apart from Freja who needed feeding. I do this after changing into my comfies or pyjamas as I felt I'd been neglecting her this last week allowing everyone else to give her a bottle cuddle her put her to sleep you get the thoughts I'm having. I sit in the conservatory feeding her when Ben walks in changed into his pyjamas he is as I'm sure I've told you a few times so gorgeous in them he has some stubble on his chin which makes him look even more adorable and you guessed he has his glasses on his eyes get tired when he has the lenses in all day not that he needs to wear them as I've told him to which his reply usually is "But darling you would not be able to keep you're sexy hands off me if I wore them all the time" which in all fairness is probably true. "Hey gorgeous girl" he says to me standing in the door way leaning against the frame as he does a lot I've noticed I'm sure he knows it excites me. "Hello my darling" I answer to him and he smiles walking over "Little miss hungry" he asks "She is, she's guzzling bless her" I tell him as he sits down next to me stroking the top of Freja's head "It's been a long day for her" he says "I can't believe how quickly she's changing" he says to me "They do sweetie they aren't babies for long " I tell him "How are you my darling, really" he asks looking concerned "I'm alright Benny" I tell him "Really" he asks again "Yeah now we are home, it's been an awful week I just want to try and get back to normal" I tell him "Starting with our visitor tomorrow" I say to him smiling "You all need to do something while Gerry is here a night out or something just you lads" I tell him "Lis have you any idea what shape I'd be in if us lads all went out" he laughs "I can imagine but you have to sweetie, have a break let you're hair down, well what's left of it you being an old man and all" I tease him "Hey cheeky" he jokes "No really have fun with them baby you deserve it" I tell him "Well then you have to let me spoil you darling we will have a night out too just me and you yeah" he says "Sounds good to me" I tell him.

"Would you like some cocoa you two" Gran shouts through the conservatory window "Yes please" we both answer at the same time. "See Grandad pyjamas, slippers, now cocoa I'm turning into an old man darling" Ben says laughing "Well if you can still make love to me as you do when you are an old man I'll be one very happy wife" I say with a cheeky smile "mmmm down girl" he says leaning forward to kiss me "Ooh don't you two ever stop" Gran jokes as she walks in the with the cocoa "Sorry Gran" we both say again like a couple of naughty children. "We are going to take ours up to bed my cherubs" she says "Night night" she says giving us both a kiss "Night Gran" Dad appears at the door "Night Kids sleep tight" he is a sweetie "Night Dad" Ben shouts "Is that you all done now Madame" I say to Freja "Come on then go to Daddy" I say handing her to Ben "Hello you, how's Daddy's gorgeous girl hey how's Daddy's gorgeous girl" he says making that voice again he grabs her cloth from her basket and stands up popping her over his shoulder tapping her back "You gonna do big burps for Daddy Fre Fre" he says making me smile. How could I not want to have more children with this man, the thought of it us having a huge family five six children ah Christmas around the tree holiday's on the beach Ben at the head of us all and wouldn't he be so proud I get a warm feeling inside thinking about it and then an urgency I want another baby but I want it now. I look up as I hear the sound of Ben's voice he's singing to Freja

"hush little baby don't say a word Daddy's gonna buy you a mocking bird

and if that mocking bird don't sing Daddy's gonna buy you a diamond ring"

he turns to me as he sings and winks at me God I love him so much. Clearly soothed by her Daddy's voice it isn't long before Freja is asleep on Ben "Time for bed sweetheart" he says "You take Freja up and I'll lock everything up yeah Ben says as I take Freja off him she must have been tired as she barely notices the switch over. I head up to bed upstairs feels cold but then we haven't been here I pop Freja in her cot and bundle her up so she's toastie. I jump into bed feeling drained this morning feels like a life time ago but all that happened in the same day. Ben has put the electric blanket on I notice when I jump in which makes things a little cosier.