Sing Once Again With Me

Twas the Night Before Christmas

I lie in Ben's arms staring at the christmas tree like a little girl, his warmth his embrace were possibly the best christmas Present I could wish for. His hand is resting on my swollen tummy he still can't take in the fact that there were two little Langley babies growing in there but then I can't say that I am finding it easy to acknowledge either. "Are you alright Sweetheart" he asks me "Yeah feeling much better now sweetie, my bath was lovely thank you" I tell him he had run me a lovely bath with candles and my favorite bubble bath as he's done so many times before reminding me of a year ago when he run one after I got back from work just before I found out I was having Freja, I could never have imagined then that twelve months on where we'd be but I wouldn't swap it for all the jewels in the world. Ben was trying so hard to make me feel better I was unable to keep it from him how Poorly I'd been feeling but it was more than worth it to see the smile on his face when he looked at the scan picture that Dr Porter gave us of our two little jelly beans.

I felt so bad relying on everyone to help me I'd even had to get Gran help me get Bens Christmas presents, Id managed to get his Card myself making it online on the Moon pig website "To My Darling Husband" it said across the top with two little dancing elves that just happened to have our faces in them, he laughed when he opened it.

I'd given him one present early and although it took some persuading he did look dead cute in it "I can't believe you got me in a onesie" he says to me it was grey with white and navy dears and snowflakes around the top "don't you like it sweetie" I tease "as much as it pains me to say it, it's one of the comfiest things I've ever put on" he says trying to do an annoyed growl at me he he, he does make me laugh. "You look much better in yours darling" he says mine was the same design only red with the white pattern.

"Come here sweetheart give us a cwtch" he says to me pulling me to him on the sofa" "Have we done everything sweetie" I ask him "It's all in hand my darling" he says "But have we got enough food for everyone" I ask "Gran has taken care of it Lis now stop stressing please" he says "Tomorrow is going to be mad you know that" I say to him "Still can't believe you invited everyone Sweetie" I tell him "Well you know chrstmas spirit and all that sweetheart we should all be together" he says the high he was still riding on from our news had led him to invite everyone to us for Christmas Day and to stay over althlough where everyone was going to sleep goodness knows "We will all muck in together darling it'll be fine" he says I swear he is still bouncing certainly more talkatvie than when we came back from the hospital this morning

Earlier that Day

Come on Ben where are you I think to myself sat on the edge of my hospital bed he text to say that he has left and on his way but the wait seems eternal. I can't wait to get home to my family it's Christmas Eve and I can't wait I see the faces on my little babies they are so excited about Father Christmas coming and even Amelia is too, Diane was pleased as she had feared she would have a bad Christmas but no one has a bad Christmas when you're with us Langley's. Gran was going out in all force the house was decorated from head to foot and Christmas dinner was more of a banquet. Ben had sent me a photo last night before I went to sleep of the kids making mince pies for Father Christmas of course.

Ben said that had left the last of their advent calendar chocolates for when I got home. I'm disturbed from my thoughts by that voice that made my face beam "Sweetheart how are you feeling" He asks me "I'm fine sweetie Dr Porter has given me some different tablets for my sickness which seem to be working better" I tell him "oh that's great, can't have you missing out on Grans Christmas dinner now" he says "Sweetie I'm so excited for tomorrow" I tell him "Me too darling" he replies "Come on let's get you home we still have a houseful" he says "Really" I say "Yep everyone wanted to know if you were alright so ended up staying with us last night" he says "ah bless them" I go to stand up as Ben takes me in his arms "Oh sweetheart I missed you last night" he says "I hate spending any night away from you" he tells me "Me too it's never the same without you there next to me" I tell him "We will make up for it tonight and have a proper Christmas cwtch" he says and I look at him with those eyes "Just a cwtch" He says as Dr Porter told us we needed to be careful after my bleed "Can't wait" I say to him "I've got a present for you to open before we go to bed tonight sweetie anyway" I tell him "what present" he says "well I'm