Sing Once Again With Me

Too Much to Live For

Two weeks Later

Ben's Point of View

It had been nearly two weeks since Lisa was allowed to come home from hospital I was so afraid of anything happening to her, she still seemed so fragile to me her pregnancy was no different than her last she was constantly sick worse again this time if anything so Gran is convinced that this baby is a boy. I was still getting my head around the fact that she was pregnant again so if I was finding it hard how was she feeling. The last arrangements had been put in place ready for the club to open and although this is supposed to be an exciting time Lisa was finding it hard as she was with everything feeling so poorly didnt help. Plus she was still having headaches now and again and sometimes she just seemed confused or muddled but the doctor said its just a reaction to the operation throw in raging hormones and crazy emotions and my poor darling had enough to deal with.

"Where is our little cherub Ben" Gran asks me "She's sleeping Gran she's been sick most of the afternoon" I tell her "Oh love her little heart, but I tell you she wasnt this sick with Freja I know she was sick but not this bad so thats a little boy she's got growing in there" she says winking at me "If you say so Gran" I tell her "You didn't have many classes today lovey" Gran asks me as she hands me a cup of tea "No most of the students are off on the trip, the big wig said I didn't have to go on it because Lisa was ill so I've only got my year ones this week" I tell her "how's Gerry doing" she asks as he now has a post at the college as the new maths lecturer "yeah good the students love him well the girls do the lads are scared shitless of him" I say as we both laugh. "um is your Dad alright lovey" she asks look out she's sniffed the rat I try and play dumb "uh yeah as far as I know why do you ask Gran" I say "he just seems very quiet lately do you think he's got a woman" and just as the words come out I spit my tea out "what don't be daft" I say she comes over to me waving the tea towel "Benjamin Langley you never were any good at lying" she says "like the time you told me you hadn't eaten all the strawberries out of your Grandad's greenhouse and yet your lips were covered in juice"she says "Gran I was four" I tell her "yeah and you've still got that same look about you now come on boy spit it out" she says "Gran it's none of our business" I say "so he has then I bloody knew it the sly dog"she says "what's the problem with him having someone" I ask "well he doesn't have the best track record does he" she says "no but neither did I then look I met Lisa" I tell her "hmm and she was dull enough to have you" she says smiling and pinching my cheek. "well who is she" Grans asks "I don't know Gran and I don't think we should interfere he will tell us when he is ready" I say "ooh you bloody spoil sport"she calls me "now promise you won't go pestering him about it" I say and she gives me that look "Gran" I say lingering the word out "I won't say a word I promise" "Won't say a word about what" Lisa calls coming into the room "oh cherub how are you feeling" Grans asks "Bit better thanks Gran" she tells her "nice cup a tea lovey that always used to do the trick when you were carrying Freja" Gran says "Where is Freja" Lisa asks "in her cot having a nap sweetheart, did you manage to get some sleep" I ask her "yeah I did have some sweetie" "So whats the big secret" Lisa asks "Dad" I say "What about Dad" she says "We think" I start as Gran huffs "WE THINK" I emphasise "That he's got himself a girlfriend" and Lisa smiles "Has he well good old Dad" she says "Hmmm" Gran mutters "Gran whats the prob darling" Lisa asks "Nothing I'm not saying a word" she says "Well thats a first" Lisa jokes "Come on" she urges her I just smile "Well he hasnt really had anybody has he" Gran says "How do we know" Lisa asks "Oh come on Gran dont you think it would do him good, Look at Dad and Julie look how happy they are I was worried that Dad would never find anyone after Mum and he has" she looks at Lisa getting annoyed that no one can see her point of view "You, you should be resting" she says to Lisa making us both laugh. Lisa walks over to her "I've been resting Gran and I came down for a cuppa because no one makes one quite like My Gran" ah she's got her clever girl "Ooh you bloody smooth talker he's been teaching you that aint he" she says to Lisa pointing at me as I hold my hands up in protest. "Go and sit down lovey wrap yourself up and I'll bring it in" Gran tells her and being the good girl she is she does as she's told. I'm getting a real feeling of déjà vu it was just under a year ago when Gran was last tucking her up and feeding her tea to settle her morning sickness time had ran away and there was only a few weeks until Christmas. Riley had turned five already enjoying a huge party at the local swimming baths because this is what everyone in his class was doing apparently, boy my son was growing up he wasn't even the little boy he was when I first met him changing so much full of confidence and enthusiasm making Lisa so proud. Ellie my Princess was growing too a proper little girly girl hmm where does she get that from. And our little Freja growing every day such a happy smiley little girl my perfect little family and now the thought of a new one on the way.