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2.9

     [Your tears, My cry]

     "Xiaohua! You should see me and Minghao's dance!" Liang Wei exclaimed, pulling on Minghao to dance with her. I nodded while taking a seat on the couch. "Shouldn't we play the music?" Minghao asked. "Let's just sing it ourselves!" Liang Wei seemed very ecstatic about this dance. I mean, it is her first performance that she'll be doing, so I get it. I acted the same when I did Joshua's makeup for the first time. But a part of me felt jealousy taunting as I watched them. Her voice was like an angel, so was his. The intimate hand movements made my eyes twitch. My expressions made it clear that I was a bit uncomfortable. I glanced over at Jun, he looked the same as I did. Joshua cleared his voice when he saw me. Seonghee fidgeted while exchanging looks between me and the two. The atmosphere was heavy for a lot of us. But when Liang Wei took a glance and kept dancing, I assumed she was feeling proud. I slapped myself mentally. Don't be jealous, Xiaohua! It's just a dance, and who am I to take this moment away from her? I'm so emotional nowadays. Not good for my health.

     Their performance finally finished, it felt like it was going on for hours. Hoshi decided to play some music, and the first thing that came on was Home. "Xiaohua, come dance with me!" He yelled. I excitedly stood up, began dancing with the tune. This made my mood brighten up a bit. Fun.

     "Woah, Xiaohua!" Jun exclaimed, amazed at the dance. I chuckled a bit when the killing part came on. Hoshi and I danced perfectly insync. Who knew that practicing the same dance for three months would actually be useful? I bowed at the end, walking back to the couch. "We should teach you the dance to our comeback song." Joshua suggested. "Right! If you were able to learn that, then this dance shouldn't be as hard." Jun insisted while pulling me off the couch. But I could feel a certain someone, staring at me, cringing at me, fidgeting in his seat uncomfortably, but not doing anything. Not being his overprotective self. Not being bothered by Jun's intimate movements as he taught me the dance. He's really been acting weird today. Why?

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     Mingyu walked back into the room with some soju. "Are we really going to drink?" Seungcheol said in a surprised tone. "Of course!" Hoshi yelled while grabbing one of the bottles. Mingyu placed the bottles on the table, I grabbed one and took a sip. "Karaoke time~~" Dokyeom turned on the tv and began choosing a song. Let's get drunk tonight, Xiaohua. You haven't done it in a while.

     "Liang Wei, Seonghee, sing this song with us!" Woozi called. The song he chose was 'Hug' and most of the vocal team was singing, except for Dokyeom who was close to passing out from the alcohol. Liang Wei and Seonghee ran up and began singing.

     "Don't be sorry"

"Don't worry"

     "Don't be scared"

"Now don't cry"

     Woahh. That performance almost brought tears to my eyes, and I don't do that very often. I let out a clap after they finished. "Waaa~ You guys are so good." I exaggerated it by wiping the fake tears off my eyes. Seonghee elbowed me to sing next. Me? Sing? Never. It would break all of your ears even if I tried. "No, no, I really can't." I shook my head repeatedly. "C'mon, Xiaohua!" Liang Wei begged. I took another gulp of soju and finally gave in. "I'll sing with you, it'll make you more comfortable." Jun offered. I laid down on the floor in defeat, the others choosing a song to sing. "Oh, this will really suit her." I heard Joshua say. "Right! Let's do it." Liang Wei added. The familiar tune made my body sit up and finally look at the screen. Jun began to sing.

     "It's like a polaroid love~"

"사랑 촌스런 그 감정"

     Why does the song have to be so catchy... ;_; It immediately got me singing and dancing, even if I thought my singing was bad. Even the negative thoughts disappeared for a second, unbelievable. Me and Jun danced with each other, exchanging cheesy looks from time to time. So what? I was having the time of my life.

     "흔한 filter조차 없어"

"But I love the vibe~"

     The members began cheering as if they had watched a performance by their favorite band. "Xiaohua, I don't understand why you were so scared! You did great!" Seonghee high-fived me. I proudly sat down with a smile on my face, squealing a bit. Jun sat next to me while the others got ready for another song.

     About 1.5 bottles later, many of us were passed out or extremely drunk. I laid on Jun while playing with the ring he wore. The ring that I bought him. Wow, Xiaohua, even if you are mad at Minghao, can you at least stay loyal? This fluttering is really getting on my nerves.

     "Xiaohua, let's go outside for a bit." Minghao said while hinting me to the door. Me being the drunk, stupid person I was (and still am), willingly went out with him, if only I knew what was going to happen next.

     "Let's break up." He started.

     It hit directly at my heart, making it pound faster. I suddenly felt sober, so sober that I felt like I could pass out peacefully. He's drunk! It must be a joke, right?

     "Hm?" I replied, hoping and praying with all my might that he was just playing around.

He laughed to himself and went on, "Do you pity me or something?"

     I stood there, unaware of what he meant.

"I know you've liked Jun from the start. Why would you ever agree to date me?"

     My heart ached, it ached so bad that I wanted to die right then and there.

"Minghao, he's my friend. That's all. I love you a lot." I said with a few voice cracks. I was on the verge of crying.

     I touched his hand in an attempt to hold it, but he quickly pulled away. Are my eyes beginning to water?

     "Hua, I'm just doing what's best for us. Now we just need to walk back in there and tell them that we broke up."

     A lump formed in my throat and I felt like throwing up. I should've watched my actions so that none of this would've happened. I wanted to grab his arm, tell him I'm sorry. Beg him to take back his words. But I couldn't. I'm sorry, Minghao.

     I found my voice. "I- I have to go somewhere." He looked back, stunned. Tears ran down my cheek as I turned around and headed for the exit. I hate you, Li Xiaohua.

a/n 

sad ending? thought so. 

isn't this going by reeeeaaaally slow? cuz imo it is. 

goddd i hate this part. why did i make them date in the first place ;_; welp, there's nothing i can do about it now. 

ty 4 reading part 2 tho! (and ty for dealing w all my shit throughout this whole part)

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