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3.1

     [My friend]

     I took another sip out of the bottle and looked out into the nothingness. I was sitting on the concrete block in an alleyway. There's no one here to watch me cry or yell or hit myself in frustration. "I HATE YOU, LI XIAOHUA!" I screamed while throwing the bottle onto the ground, making it shatter into one thousand pieces, just like my heart.

     Sniffle~

     I jumped at the sudden sound. Was someone here all along? "Shit." I whispered to myself while laying down on the hard, cold, concrete block.

     "You hate yourself too?" the person said as their voice broke. It was a familiar voice.

I didn't respond, just closed my eyes as silent sobs were let out and meaningless tears fell down my cheek.

     "Xiaohua?"

Don't say my name. I'm embarrassed just hearing it. And I admit, I am a joke.

     My eyes fluttered open to see a familiar face. "It's me, Jun." he said as he smiled.

A comforting smile – a friend.

     I quickly sat up, surprised at the sight of him. He was, crying? He wiped his tears, probably because he noticed my confused stare. "Why are you crying?" I asked with a concerned yet confused expression. He looked down to his shoes, giving silence as an answer. I guess he didn't want to tell me. I sighed, picking up another bottle from the plastic bag. Never thought that this was how I'd turn out, but they were right. Alcohol is the best stress reliever.

     I almost threw a punch when Jun snatched the bottle out of my hand. "Stop drinking. It won't help." He nagged. I groaned while standing up to walk away. "Fine," he grabbed my hand to sit me back down, "I broke up with Liang Wei." The aching feeling suddenly hit my heart. "How could you!?" I yelled at him. "It was because-" "Do you know how broken she must feel right now?! Even if we were mad at them from the dance, you have no idea how much it hurts!" I finally took a breath after all that yelling. I can only imagine how Liang Wei must feel right now, and I'm really fighting the urge to scold Jun. Until I heard his sniffle again. "You don't understand how hard it is for me either! Have you ever felt the pain of not being able to be there for her when she needs it the most?!" And with that, he stood up and left me. Left me in the dark alleyway, alone. Heavy sobs finally released after being held in. So much for the comforting smile of a friend. Now, he's gone. What did he even mean by that?

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     I woke up on my bed, the grey clouds surrounding the sky. This is a sign to skip work. Even if it pains me, it's better to save everyone from this uncontrollable anger inside.

     My phone was ringing every 3 seconds so I finally decided to turn it off. All it was were calls from Jun and Joshua anyway.

     I looked in the mirror, seeing the dark rings surrounding my eyes. But that wasn't the only thing that concerned me. The purple-green bruise that sat on my forehead. Where did it come from? I don't recall fighting anyone last night. I tried to cover it with makeup, but every time I brushed over it with foundation, an irritating pain showed up. Maybe I should just stay home for the next few days.

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     The sky only got darker and darker as the time passed by. I worked on a few clothing pieces to send to the tailor. If I'm going to stay home for a while, I might as well get some work done.

     Scrolling through my recent files, I came across something. That something being a jacket, Minghao's jacket. The one he sketched before we started dating. I angrily deleted the file, holding in tears. "I don't like Jun though..." I murmured under my breath.