A Gentle Disease (Joel Hokka)

(23) Making Amends

Sonja

I was swamped with some assignments although Joel decided to crash my home while he was answering his emails, and taking care of things. Although I could sense him looking at the corner of his eyes. I felt his icy blue eyes glancing at me, while I intensely typed away on my white Dell XPS laptop.

Did I have something on my face? Did I smell? Was I looking terrible? I don't understand the constant stares at me. I stopped typing and stared off into space, thinking of the events that unfolded. Joe was cheating, and now I was sitting across from Joel.

My thoughts weren't back to the things he had said to me at the party, all of those demeaning comments about me being a slut. Did he truly want to be friends?

"Uh, would you like some coffee?" I asked the blonde haired one but his head was covered by a Venom beanie which looked so cute on him.

"That would be great thanks." Joel said, while I slowly walked into the kitchen you see I was still uncomfortable about my gait around Joel. I sighed while I filled my kettle up and turned on the stove top to heat it up.

I had a lot of questions running through my mind, as the kettle boiled away and I began getting some mugs down and chucked in a teaspoon of instant coffee, while I leaned against the counter. Was Joel truly caring toward me? Or was he leading me on? But I wasn't ready to get in a relationship. I remembered the times I would constantly roast him.

Joel walked into the kitchen and we sat my little table in the corner, a comfortable silence filled us.

"Uh Hokkaboy, why are you always sitting here with me? Like do you feel sorry for me that Joe cheated on me?" I asked him, Joel's arctic blue eyes glance at me.

"No, why would I feel sorry for you? Look I'm trying to make amends, I fucked up before and stuff and I just want to be your friend." Joel said, while I glanced into his eyes to see if he was lying. But I could see he wasn't.

"You really hurt me birdboy when you said those words, like I want to believe that you're genuine but it's hard to." I whispered to Joel, his hand gripping his mug. I was skeptical after Joe and everyone, I was always let down.

But how the heck could this hot man like me? Like he couldn't right. It was impossible or maybe I'm being too hard on myself.

"Look Sonja I got out of a fucked up relationship and you got cheated on. Maybe we should just be friends." Joel said to me, that made me laugh.

"You know we can't be, because we kissed and all. Are we going to dismiss that?" I question while Joel sighs.

"You know you're right, I didn't deal with that situation correctly. I should have told you from the start, that I had a girlfriend and dragging you into my mess wasn't fair." Joel said and I nodded.

"I think we've both hurt each other in this relationship, we've had enough of empty words and promises." I whispered, he nodded in agreement.

"So where does that leave us?" Joel asks me.

"How about we start off a clean slate and be friends?" I question and he nods.

"Friends!" Joel said with a smile, while we were laughing and getting to know each other's hobbies and stuff. We went back to working on our projects, I had one more page done. I saw Joel was finished and drumming his hands against the table.

"Are you finished yet? Can I help you?" Joel asks while he huffed and he sat closer to me, while he watched what I was typing.

"One more page." I said, while Joel nods. I had a couple more words left and I managed to hit fifteen pages. I ran the documentation through spell check making sure everything was correct and the grammar flowed.

I finished like two days early, so the spell check was all go ahead. I saved my Google Doc and then shut off my laptop. I don't know why but I just felt in the mood to cause trouble, so I ripped Joel's beanie off his hand and ran away.

"Oi Sonja get back here!" Joel yells, while he began chasing after me. I was squealing trying to hide from him, I put it on my head. I was behind the couch and stuff, while we were both standing in front of each other, as I was thinking of how to get past Joel. I went right and Joel followed me.

I ran right into Joel's arms which made me laugh, he scooped me up causing a squeal to escape my lips while I laughed.

"Oh you're in so much trouble now! Always like to cause trouble don't you?" Joel asks me and I laughed. He snatched back his beanie, and he began to tickle me.

"Oh my God! Stop please!" I squeal through giggles, while Joel's laughter filled my living room, while he continued to tickle my belly.

"Say Joel is the sexiest in a Finnish demon folklore!" He said with an evil smirk, that wasn't fair. His arms had pinned mine against the ground, he was so close to my face.

"No never!" I said with a laugh, Joel smirks at me.

"Oh yeah, do I make you nervous Sonja?" He asks me close to my face. He began to tickle me some more but I decided it would be a good idea to say what he wanted me to say.

"Yes you're the sexiest demon from a Finnish folklore." I said, once Joel was satisfied, he pulled away from me and we were staring at each other.

We decided to make something to eat because we were both hungry. It was nice having a laugh with someone, although our past was complicated. It didn't mean we could start from scratch.

"Uh this might be too much to ask, but Niko is having a party at his place. I was wondering if you wanted to come with me? We can go as friends." Joel asks me, he looked nervous and started fidgeting his black nail polish that was chipping away from his fingers.

"Are you sure you want me to come? I mean isn't it band related?" I asked him, he nods.

"But I want you to come because it's always nice having you around." Joel said to me. I sighed looking at him.

"I'll have to let you know because I'm not sure if I got finals coming up. And especially it's almost my last term, I'm trying my hardest not to get distracted Hokka boy." Joel said, while I opened up my phone calendar, to see if I was working that week.

"When's the party?" I asked him. He told me the date and I was clear by then, because some of my assignments were finished already.

"Yes I'll come with you. But no funny business." I said to him and Joel nods.

"As I said, we're going as friends." Joel said. I nodded, but I got a phone call from the hospital. I had to see my neurologist on Wednesday.

I listed it on the calendar, while Joel looked at me. He just knew something was bothering me.

"What's wrong? You look trouble." Joel said and I sighed.

"Just thinking about stuff, you know this thing I have it feels like a parasite that latched onto me and hijacked my mitochondrial." I whispered while we both laid on my carpet, Joel rolls over on his side and we were glancing at each other.

"Sonja I understand, maybe sometime I'll tell you my stories. We're all flawed and we aren't perfect. But these scars makes us beautiful." Joel whispers to me.

Whatever that meant...

Honestly I was nervous about what the party would bring.

A/N: Sorry... I was a little swamped with life things! What do you think will happen at Niko's party? Do you folks think Joel cares about Sonja? Will Sonja open up to Joel some more? - MyVictim

P.S: Can't believe this story has hit 3k already! Thank you so much!

Song: Timebomb by Blind Channel