TNRS I: To The Bone (Ongoing)

Chapter 10: Someone who understands

"I'm sorry." Nagulat si tita dahil roon at tinaas ang mga kamay niya sa ere, telling me she won't touch. "Rai, it's okay."

"M-my hands." I looked at tita wanting to cry again.

"Raizza, you're fine. Your hands are fine. You're okay. You're alright. Hey, look at me. I'm here. Tita's here." She kneeled on the floor and looked at me straight in the eyes as she assured me.

She tried to calm me down without laying a single hand on me.

"That's right, breathe... Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. That's my girl." Tumatango niyang sabi.

When I finally calmed down, she tried to touch me but immediately backed out ng umilag ako. I don't wanna be touched, right now even if it's her.

"Take a shower. Ako na ang magtatapon sa damit mo."

Tumango nalang ako bago sinara ang pinto ng shower. Hinubad ko agad ang damit ko at nandidiri ko itong itinapon sa labas ng shower room.

Then, I constantly rubbed myself with soap until my skin probably turned red. Paglabas ko ng shower ay wala na roon ang damit na hinubaran ko and there were new sets of clothes prepared for me near the sink.

I put on the clothes tita prepared for me at pagkalabas ko ng bathroom, tita and lyndel's eyes averted their gazes and act normal, like nothing had ever happened.

I got into the separate room, shut the door close and let the light remained turned off. Naupo ako sa lapag next to the bedroom. I huddled myself together in the middle of the dark empty room.

Naipikit ko ang mga mata ko. I feel tireless and cold. My body feels sensitive and reluctant to being touched again. But it's not as worse as before. Back then, I used to panic and faint when the trauma gets provoked.

But now, I was more calm. I guess... this is improvement.

Kinabukasan tita went firing all the bodyguards we had as well as the security and the staffs of the hotel all because of what happened last night.

I told her not to. We can't risk leaking it to the media that the eldest daughter of the owner of D'L has post-traumatic stress disorder.

"You bastards are all useless! Ano pa't sumasahod kayo kung hindi niyo naman magawa ng tama ang mga trabaho ninyo?!"

All the bodyguards hang their heads low. Nasa loob kami ngayon ng room, inside the living room and all of the bodyguards who came with us in the hotel were all rounded up here. Because, tita weren't satisfied at all with the kind of service they gave last night.

I wouldn't blame her, they were supposed to be on patrol 24/7. They knew the rules, they signed the contract and they must abide by the rules. In the end, they were all cut out of service until the moment we get home.

"I'm going out." I said.

"Take three bodyguards with you and no complaints coming from you! You should've learned what's to come to you before deciding going off all on yourself without taking any bodyguards with you!" She strictly warned.

I heaved a sigh. I know my situation is dire but I don't like being watched in every step I take kahit pa mga babae iyong ini-hire nilang bodyguards solely to focus on me. I don't like it not even a bit.

Tinignan ko iyong tatlo. Even if they are women, they're all pretty skilled.

"Civilized yourselves and just follow behind without making it obvious that you're with me." Pinasadahan ko ng tingin ang suit nila before they all nodded obediently.

When I got outside, I went to meet the manager of the hotel para sabihing huwag na ipatanggal iyong ilang security at staffs na ipinapatanggal ni tita. It isn't right, even if our family is the one who helped this hotel strive and grow. She can't just go around firing employees.