TNRS I: To The Bone (Ongoing)

Chapter 39: The weight of her shoulders

I pressed my lips together and met his eyes with so much tenacity that I could pull off.

"What are you saying?" I held myself firmly.

"Come back... to me." Slowly he repeated, pinapaintinding mabuti saakin ang bawat salita.

The sides of my eyes are starting to sting from unknown reasons. I look at him in disbelief in my eyes, he looks at me in a rather calm manner... in a way that he's been longing for something for such a long time.

It was the look of familiarity in his eyes that is making my heart tremble and my system, frozen.

I closed my eyes when he closed the gap between us. "Do you even know what you are saying..." I breathed.

I think I'll hate myself for letting him get close to me like this. Pinagdikit niya ang aming mga noo, our lips almost touching, and both of us breathing through our noses.

"I do, as well as I'm aware of my actions." He quietly replied against my lips.

I gulped hard; eyes still closed. "No." Dear God, please don't let me lose my grip on reality. This is wrong. Being with him this close is so wrong. "Let go of me."

God, how I wished you have done this sooner.

His hand traveled down from the wall and reached for my right hand. I opened my eyes when he moved back a little, letting me breathe.

"You know, I accepted your company's proposals and came that day to confirm only one thing... and seeing it twice makes my heart twitch with so much joy than you could ever imagine."

I felt like my heart fell from the sky to ground and then back up again when his slick long fingers played with one particular finger of mine... where my engagement ring should've been on.

"How dare you struck a deal with lala." Chills ran down from my spines. "I went to the asylum for you." Nag-igting ang kaniyang panga.

Natigilan ako. My eyes widened.

Asylum?

I don't know what I should feel right now other than be scared for my life. This has always been my very deepest and darkest fear because this man is the greatest force that could pull me from the ends of the earth and back.

The heart can be misleading and for that matter, I cannot trust my own heart when I'm with him.

I snatched back my hand after gathering strength. "I am an engaged woman, and I am getting married soon." I looked into his eyes bitterly and hostile but little did he know, fear is lurking under that mask. "Please, let me go."

Tinulak ko siya palayo saakin and with my chest heaving up and down as I am almost catching my breath from running, I walked out of the room.

I clutched my mouth with my cold shaky hands. My knees shaking and weak. 

I knew if I hadn't taken action with my body and left my heart to decide, I would've been a goner. It was a mistake that I've let him stop me from leaving the room in the first place.

Dire-diretso akong naglakad paalis and left the studio instantly without even finishing the shoot. I couldn't fathom to stay there and be in the same space as him.

He went to the asylum? Ha!

How could he say such crude words and even put us into such a space like that? He has a child for goodness' sake! What was he thinking with all of those things running inside his head?!

He's smart, he should know—okay he could be reckless at times too, but years have passed! We are much mature now! So, he must surely know what he is thinking but what the hell is he thinking?!