Thalassophile (Billy Hargrove)

I need a ride

Chapter 25
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"There is no freaking way!" Nancy had a hard time wrapping her head around everything I told her, and I was sure she would explode. "He can't fucking do that shit to you!" I shrugged and played with the grass Nancy, Johnathan, and I currently sat on. Rather than having lunch out at the student parking lot like we usually did, to avoid Billy, we sat outside on the soccer field.

"He is. I don't know, Nancy; there is something about what he said that makes me want to believe him." I admitted. Nancy rolled her eyes. "He hurt you, Kai; he broke your heart." I looked down at the ground again, and Nancy took my hand in hers. "I just don't want you to get hurt, you know, it took you weeks to get over him, and you're doing so good now; I just don't want him to mess that up."

"Right, Johnathan." Nancy looked to her boyfriend for support, but John, messing with his camera, shrugged. "I think kai should do whatever she wants, look if you think giving billy another chance is a good idea, then I will support you, but if he ever hurts you again, I can, you know, rough him up for ya." with that all three of us began to laugh, it felt nice to be able to share this with my best friends. I felt relieved that they didn't judge me too hard.

"You know, Nance, last night I dreamed of Barbara." Nancy's eyes soften. "This one time, Barb told me how she would tell me, "I told you so." when a guy finally tells me he loves me, and the minute I closed my eyes last night, I see Barb saying told you so." I laughed, and I could see Nancy whip a tear that traced down her cheek. "Yup, that sounds like Barb, alright." I sniffled and hugged Nancy, "She knows we love her, right," Nancy nodded. "I'm sure she knows we miss her like crazy." we pulled away from our hug, but Nancy didn't let go of my hands. "Screw what I said before; if you think giving Billy another chance is a good idea, then do it because no matter what, I will always support you no matter what decisions you make because I know you will make the right one."

"Thanks, Nance."

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When the last bell finally rang, I repeated everything I wanted to say to Billy in my head. I was sure that this time, I would not lose my ability to speak like I did last time; however, in my defense, he had just proclaimed his love for me after dumping me a few months earlier. Okay, now I was getting mad again, which was not helping my situation.

As I walked outside almost instantly, as if I was a moth and he was flame, my eyes were drawn to him. He was in all his 5'11 glory, leaning on his blue Camaro with a cigarette hanging from his pink lips. I hated the fact that he smoked. I hated when anyone smoked, yet somehow right now, he looked so hot doing it.
I wouldn't ever admit it because then I would be a hypocrite.

Slowly my feet started to move, and I walked toward him. Where was his usual posse or his new girlfriend of whoever she was, do him? As I got closer, I noticed he was playing with a lighter, and he probably had no idea I was walking over to him.

His black leather jacket hugged his body perfectly; he tapped his foot to the song playing from the inside of his car, and just then, my heart skipped a beat just from the sight of him. When I was only five feet away from him, he looked up through his golden locks fixing his blue eyes on mine. He immediately set his posture and threw the cigarette away, crushing it.  And just like that, I forgot everything I wanted to say to him.

"Kai."

"Billy." I exhaled, not realizing I was holding my breath all this time. Fuck I had been practicing all day what I wanted to say to him, and now that I was here standing in front of him, I forgot it all.

"Did you think about what I said-"

"I need a ride." I blurted out before I could stop myself; his mouth formed a small oh "because um, my dad took my car to the shop and it won't be done anytime soon so if it's not any trouble do you think you could give me a ride?"