Having Noah as a roommate has been chaotic. He's so sweet and treats me like a princess... But half the time he isn't here. Yes I know he's a public figure and has to be gone a lot for whatever he does but sometimes I just want him home. It was another weekend when Noah is out of town for something and I've literally been sitting around since I had the weekend off. It's been really lonely since I really don't have friends. Jaden and I haven't spoken since him and Josh accused Noah of using me. Anyway, I was laying on my couch scrolling through TikTok, watching most of Noah's "friends" on my fyp and other things that appear. While mindlessly scrolling Noah facetimed me.
"Hi princess," He said and I cringed. He knows I hate being called that.
"When are you coming home?" I pout and he chuckles cutely.
"Hopefully tonight, It's just been really busy," He said, it's always really busy... I sigh while thinking about it.
"Hey, what's wrong?" He says, giving me a concerned look.
"Nothing," I quickly answered and he still looked worry.
"Babe I promise as soon as I get back we'll do something special," Noah promises and I haven't believed his promises for a few weeks.
"I have to get back now, but I'll call you tonight," Noah said before we said our goodbyes and hanging up. I turned my phone off and got up from the couch. I looked around my apartment noticing small things that needed to be clean and decided to put on some music and clean the place.
After a few hours I turned my phone back on and immediately got spammed with messages from Noah.
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"Shit" I swore, looking at my phone. I tried calling Noah and got no answer, as I tried to leave a message the front door opened.
"Y/N?" Noah called out and I practically ran to him and jumped in his arms and wrapped my legs around his torso. He caught me and caught his balance at the same time. I wanted to cry in his shoulder, smelling his scent again.
"Hey to you too," Noah said and I could feel that he was emotional.
"I've missed you," I said and he chuckled.
"So that's what that was earlier," He said and put me down on my feet.
"I thought I did something wrong, they cut the shoot short and I flew out here as fast as I could," He said and I shook my head.
"You could never do anything wrong," I said and he smiled and closed the door behind him.
"I could barely get in the house without you jumping me," Noah joked and pecked my lips.
"How was your trip?" I asked as we walked into the kitchen.
"Boring, I wish I could take you with me," He said and grabbed a water from the fridge.
"Do you have to leave again since the shoot got cut short?" I asked and he shrugged.
"Maybe," He said and I sighed on the inside.
"I'll talk to my manager about it though," Noah said and leaned against the counter.
"What should we do?" He asked and I shrugged.
"Are you tired?" I asked.
"Kind of," Noah answered and I stepped closer to him. He looked into my eyes, questionably.
"You sure nothing else is bothering you?" He asked and I shook my head
"You just seem off and you know you can tell me anything," Noah said and pulled me closer to him. I laid my head on his chest as he ran circles around my back.
"I don't want you to leave," I said and he looked down at me.
"What do you mean?" He asked and I looked up at him.
"I know you need to be gone because of your career but I just want you home with me," I said and he sighed.
"Baby you know if I could I would be home with you all the time," Noah said and kissed my forehead.
"How about I take a vacation and we can go somewhere," he suggested.
"Where?" I asked.
"Um, I don't know yet but we'll figure it out. Just get next week off," Noah said
"Okay," I said and laid my head back on his chest. He kissed my head and we stood like that for a few minutes.
"Do you want get some food, or should I cook?" He asked, breaking the silence.
"Can you cook, I don't feel like going out," I said and walked out of the kitchen.
"Where are you going?" He shouted as I walked into the bedroom. I laid down before answering
"I'm tired," I said as he stood at the doorway.
"I'll start cooking," he said with a small chuckle. I stuffed my face into a pillow and thought back to what Josh was saying about Noah. I start overthinking and want to cry because what if it's true? What if he is using me? Maybe that's why he's gone all of the time. My thoughts keep running and soon enough I'm in tears and trying to stay quiet so Noah doesn't here.
"Babe?" Noah questions from the door.
"Fuck," I say under my breath and hugged my knees. I can hear him put a plate down on the dresser and come over to me. He sits next to me and pulls me closer to him.
"What's wrong?" He says really concerned and I refuse to look at him.
"Baby, talk to me," he says in a lite voice.
"I hate being alone Noah," I say and look at him. He rubbed my puffy cheeks and and kissed my temple.
"I know, but that can't be why you're so upset," He says and I shake my head.
"Do you love me?" I questioned and he looked at me confused.
"Yes, ofcourse I love you," he says and I lift my head off his chest.
"Sometimes it feels like you don't," I say and he looks at me in disbelief.
"Wow, um when was this?" Noah asked and I sniffled.
"When you leave for two weeks and I barely hear from you," I answered and he shook his head.
"Because I'm working," he says clearly trying not to snap at me.
"I know but not even texts on breaks?" I questionably say and he sighs.
"I'm sorry that I don't talk to you much when I'm gone, I'm gonna try my hardest to talk to you when I'm away," Noah said with a small smile.
"Okay," I said and he nodded.
"Now food has been done for a little bit so let's eat," Noah said and got up to grab the plate he put down earlier to give to me.
"I'll be back, eat," He said and I nodded. I slowly ate my food before Noah came back in the room. He sat next to me with his food and we ate and talk a little bit about where we were going for our vacation.
