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Harsh breaths,
Struggling with all the tests,
Knowing I'm doing the best,
Maybe I'm stressed,
I barely get any rest,
Now it's night,
A dark sight,
Basking in moonlight,
To some the dark is a fright,
I think it's just right,
Nothing to tie your stomach in knots,
It doesn't hold much silence,
Memories of violence,
All on replay,
Somewhere my thoughts won't stray,
And I just want them away,
Picking at the ends whee my clothes have begun to fray,
Occasionally I'll get a sick feeling,
That's when I'm inside staring at the ceiling,
Time is what my thoughts are stealing,
Killing me,
I just want to flee,
But that wouldn't bring glee,
I just want to be free,
From all I think,
It makes me want to sink,
From a poisoned cup I'd drink,
Happily with a clink,
If it got me out of here,
I'm the picture of fear,
Caught,
Between what I want,
And what others want,
I don't feel special,
My words aren't beauty,
They aren't even clever,
I just want to be okay,
But my heart betrays,
I don't want to like someone,
To love is giving someone a loaded gun,
They have a chance to pull the trigger,
Which they will I figure,
Shooting emotion,
It's a funny notion,
I just want to go,
But that's not something I can show,
Everyone would say no,
My mind is just moving slow,
I'm just done,
With every strange tale I've spun,
I can't tell what's fun,
And I've started hating the sun,
Beating on me like a drum,
Annoyed at the fact I can't strum,
Feeling useless,
Without reason,
Not liking the next season,
Fearing my red lines,
Hiding even more because they learned,
My head being turned,
I'm mad,
Then sad,
I should be glad,
I don't have to hide as much,
But it's the opposite,
They were blissfully unaware,
Now I get a long stare,
And long hugs,
It's scary,
One fact changes everything,
So I'm sing,
Enjoy every sting,
Forgetting the promising,
I knew so couldn't keep it,
But I said it anyway,
So that they would stay,
Now I'm just grey,
Floating away,
Tired of facing every day.

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