Color Of Life (A Collection)

Is this something normal?

I think that,

there is no safe place,

other than my own house,

no,

My own room.

but if,

Someone with me,

yes, I'm safe.

I feel safe.

my heart always hurts,

it's hard,

for me to breathe,

I try to do it,

as my mother said,

as my doctor said,

but in fact, I'm weak.

I'm always scared,

wherever I am,

I tried to hold back the tears,

which were always about to flow.

my hands are so cold,

I was out of breath.

and I realized, that I was

alone.

When I opened the book,

my soul was empty.

don't feel like doing anything.

I saw, the people who was around me,

so happy.

Laughing at each other.

What a blessing,

if I felt that too.

I just denied everything.

I'm not alone, but I'm lonely.

is this something normal?