Walk on Water | Eminem Fan Fiction

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[TW: Miscarriage, Grief, Assault 18+]

avery pov
a few weeks later - august of twenty twenty

I was pushing myself to do more of the normal things I had always done, to convince marshall that I was okay. but in reality, I wasn't okay. my world was crumbling.. because marshall and I had lost our baby and almost no one around us knew.

"knock, knock" my mother said, her warm homey southern accent echoing as she opened my office door. I let out a low chuckle as she peaked her head, before she gasped, "gosh honey, I haven't seen you in the office in awhile.."

I nodded in agreement, before she sat in one of the many empty chairs in the office. "I needed a change of scenery" I said before staring out the window that overlooked the field, as she quickly furrowed her eyes, "you and marshall doin' okay..?" she asked cautiously.

I shrugged before letting out a soft scoff, "I don't really know what the definition of okay is, at the moment mom" I said as tears brimmed my eyes. my mother's intuition kicked in and within seconds I was in her arms.

"what's goin' on baby girl?" she asked before I sighed, trying to collect my thoughts. "twenty-twenty started incredibly well for us. I mean, he released his album and got to perform at the grammy's. even the store was doing exceptionally well"

"and then the accident happened, and still, months later I still try to find the silver-lining of it. I mean, in the grand scheme of it all.. it made marshall and I's relationship invulnerable. it was us against the world and nothing could break us"

I chewed at my lip, unable to hold back the truth much longer.. and I could tell my mother was bracing herself for what I was gonna say. I let out a deep disheartened sigh, "I had a miscarriage a month ago, mom" I said as I buried my head in my hands.  

a deafening silence lingered between us. "what? when were you even, pregnant?" she asked barely above a whisper as I refused to make eye contact with her. "I found out in early june and miscarried, the second week of july"

"the morning of the miscarriage I felt extremely off. and the next think you know I was bleeding and rushed to the emergency room" I said as I dug into my bag, before handing my mother the sonogram picture.

"but honey, why didn't you at least tell your father and I?" she asked as tears now brimmed her eyes. I sighed, "because I thought I had food poisoning, or a stomach bug that'd be done with by the end of the week"

I let out a low chuckle, "I saw those two pink lines and.. I was freaked the hell out and then I told marshall, and we were in our own little bubble of bliss. that baby was something we never knew we needed, mom"

"do they know why, it happened?" she asked. "it was due to the car accident, and my body not being healed. it was diagnosed as placental insufficiency, so I have no issues getting pregnant but the placenta had developmental issues"

"and, how are ya'll holdin' up?" she asked cautiously. I cleared my throat, "we're gettin' through, you know, just trying to keep ourselves busy. but i'm having a really hard time trying not to let the depression, just consume me"

my mother sighed, "honey, loss of a child is hard and overwhelming in any situation. and, I know y'all are hurting but you and marshall will overcome this. there will be days where it's easier to cope, and others not so much"