Part 2, to Just Go!
"Stop, Jax please pull over." Screaming as she shook from the adrenaline still coursing through her veins. Barely quick enough to bring the bike to a stop before she was hunched over bringing up the little food she'd eaten that day. Jax stood behind her holding back her hair rubbing her back to try and soothe her aching heart even if it didn't do much, knowing nothing could even touch what she was truly going through.
"Here." Jax said little above a whisper, handing her a bottle of water. "Thank you, thanks for everything you do Jax. Fuck, I truly don't deserve you, do I?" Voice more raspy from the burning sensation of stomach bile. "No babe, what you don't deserve is being fucking disrespected like that." Rubbing a hand over her back. Nodding her head in confirmation, that was the only way to let him know she'd heard him.
"Let's get you home, cleaned up and put you to bed." Securing the helmet back over her head. Memories of the past few years flashing in her mind, all the good times she'd shared with what she always thought would be her forever, the man she was truly convinced would be her husband one day. Seeing the house that no longer felt like a home anymore, too many awful arguments and shows of aggression from them both now tainted the good memories. Slipping his hand into her much smaller one to guide her to the front door, wordlessly telling her he'd be there for her regardless of how the relationship with Opie ended up.
"Go on, get yourself in the shower." Jax smiled gently pushing in in the direction of the hallway. "I have to get-" Being quickly cut off by him clicking his tongue. "I've got it handled. Now, go." Draping her jacket over his arm with that fucking smirk ever present. Sitting at the bottom of the shower trying to wash away all the events of the night, wrapping her arms around herself to mimic the feel of someone holding her in that moment.
"I'm going to leave these right here, princess. Got a couple things to take care of but I'll be back a little later." Jax's voice calling from the other side of the bathroom. Glancing over at the foggy glass not seeing her standing there like he'd expected, opening the door to find her pressed against the wall rubbing her hands up and down her own arms. "Watch your feet." Undressing himself down to his boxers as he sat against the wall across from her. "You want to talk about it?" Nudging her with his foot. "I don't know there's left to say, you know?" Wipping the water from her eyes.
Both startled by the loud voice booming from the front of the house calling her name, knowing exactly who it belonged to without a doubt. "What the fuck is this?" Opie asked gesturing to the two of them sat in the shower. "Trying to be here for her, since her fucking man didn't have the time." Jax shouted standing to grab a towel for her. "You need me I'll be in the next room, ok princess?" Kissing the top of her head before leaving them to talk alone. "Just falling into the arms of my best friend, is that it?" Spiteful words even though he knew he should be apologizing.
"If we're going to talk, it's going to be an adult conversation. No fucking goading me, no insults being thrown around, cut the shit Opie." Tattooed finger pointing in his face as she spoke. "All right, you're right." Putting his hands up in defeat. Dressing herself as they stood in silence, a kind of silence they'd never experienced between the two of them, one of uncomfortability at the knowledge that their future might look a lot different now. "I really am sorry for everything I've been putting you through, you didn't deserve what was happening to you." Cupping her face as he broke the silence.
"And I'm sorry for whatever you've been going through Opie, I'm sorry that it all had to come to this." Resting her forehead against his chest. "Everything's clear as crystal, it wouldn't have worked out well for us even if we did all of right the first time." Looking up at him with those beautiful mismatched eyes he'd dream of for the rest of his life. "Don't say that, we still got a chance to make it right." Trying to convince himself more than anything else. "No, we don't baby boy. Not this time, it's too broken to fix this time and that's ok." Pulling his face down to kiss his forehead.
"You'll always be the best chapter in my life, thank you for that Harry Winston." Smiling at him now. "I lost the best thing in my life, all for what? My own fucking pride?" Brushing his thumb across the scar cut over her eye. "Nothing is lost, there's only love between me and you babe. You'll always be a part of me, riders forever, right?" Letting him pick her up and into a tight hug. "Forever and always, my fucking angel." Whispered against her ear, finally letting himself cry at the loss of her. "Nothing changes between us, just because we can't make this relationship work right now doesn't mean I'm going anywhere." Wipping the tears from his face.
"You're still my forever, you know that right?" Opie asked completely serious. "You're still my forever Opie, I don't have this fucking crow on under my tits for no reason." Wrapping her arms around his neck. Holding her against his chest for a few more minutes before letting her down, following her out to where Jax sat with a knowing smile on his face. "I'm going to head to bed, love you both." Leaning down to press a kiss to each of their foreheads. That night she'd felt more peace than she had in months, knowing that even if they weren't together anymore it would change almost nothing between them. What's meant to be, will be even if it took time to come back.
