so it begins ✔️

2009

dear moon,
i got accepted into my dream college, well one of my dream colleges. not that i only got accepted to just one, i got accepted to many but, i chose this one cause the physics program here caught my interest a lot. i went to your mom's house to check how she's doing and...yeah, she's been feeling sad a lot, hope this uh, be one of the reasons for you to come back. or at least respond. i really miss you, moon. a lot.

i don't know if you got the letters i've written for you last year, i think it's total 120 now, i think. but i don't know i lost count. also, i know it's hard to believe but, i've grown 2 inches. imagine, a soon to become 21 years old man grew extra two inches. i bet you're still short, i bet you still have your brown hair open, out in the wind and i wish you're able to find your wings by now.

i also decided to grow my beard, it's a bit shorter now though. but, as time goes by, it'll grow. as times goes by, you might come back, you will come back, right, moon?

also hailee and dorothea misses you. they've asked me about you and they wished you well and also i got sun, your cat with me. i can tell she really misses you too. we all really miss you, moon. also real quick question, why couldn't you just, find your wings staying here? i'm pretty sure our good old small town isn't that bad, sure everyone knows everyone and everyone wants to know everything but, you could have just, not end all connections for me to reach out to you. i really wanna reach out to you, moon. please reach out to me just this once, at least one time for me, please moon.

...also, i saw your paintings. i think there's a valid reason on why you just left out of nowhere without leaving anything except "i have to go, i need to find my wings." i hope there's a valid reason. and i hope there's another valid reason for you to not talk with me about this before leaving, leaving without a goodbye.

i hope.

yours ever,
iven.