so it begins ✔️

2011

dear moon,
it's been a year since i realized i couldn't write anymore emails to you cause it was a deleted email account. i tried to find you online everywhere but, i couldn't find you, it's been a year and here i am, writing to you, possibly for one last time.

your 23th birthday was two days ago, happy belated birthday. can't believe we're both adults, huh? i also can't believe that, you're not here, even though it's been 2 years but i still can't believe you're actually, gone.

since you deleted your everything, i came to a decision that you did not want to be found. so i respect your feelings- and, if you somehow come, if you somehow come back, and get this letter, then all i ever want you to know is that, you were always the one, moon, you were always the one.

and i think you still are. and it's scary cause you're not here. what good will it do to love someone who's not with you? but i do, so so much.

god it, it feels like all of the heavy stones on my back are no longer there. i feel free, i feel at peace. but i know that, i shouldn't love you cause you're not here. i feel free and yet i'm caged up, i feel at peace but it also feels like the calm before the storm. i'm in love with you and you're not here.

and i, yeah.

but above all, i wanted to say that, thank you for everything. for congratulating me for acing my test a decade ago, for being there, with me, for a friendship that brought me nothing but happiness. even though there were times where we fought, we stopped talking but- you, just you, over towers it all.

over powers it all.

and wherever you are, i hope you're living life to the fullest, dreaming, and found your lost wings. and if not; i hope you find it. i know you, so i know you will find it, no matter what.

thank you.

only yours,
iven oven even