This story is dedicated to you. I hope you're happy now.
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"I'm seeing someone else now. Let's just break up."
Those words that scarred me. Those words that broke me more. The inexplainable pain, i felt it at once.
I have never thought that I will be this broken. I never thought that someone can hurt me like this. I gave my all but I just lost myself from loving you.
It's been months since we've broken up and I admit, I moved on from you but I can't move on from the pain you have caused. My wound is still fresh. And I don't know why you still can act like nothing happened. You act like you didn't broke me.
I saw you once again after months from breaking up. I admit, I still have feelings for you. You made me believe from the things I don't believed anymore.
Looking back to the old times, you're the only person who can understand my deep words, my random deep words. You're the person who saved me. You're the reason why I love watching the moon now.
I still can remember why I fell in love with the moon.
It's 11:30 in the evening now and I'm still here, outside. And planning to do something. The night is so calm. It's a cold night to be exact.
As I look down, looking at the busy city, filled with cars, I feel calm but sad at the same time.
There are many people out there but I feel so hopeless and helpless. I have friends but I don't wanna burden them anymore.
I looked at my phone again, looking at the time. It's almost 12 am.
I'm feeling sadder and sadder as the time goes. I've been silent for days now and I wonder why my friends aren't curious of my silence.
Or maybe, they just know that I'm suicidal and I tend to isolate myself when I feel like everything is not right.
But today, I really just wanna end it. I feel like there's no direction anymore.
I stand up, going to the edge of the building's rooftop, where I am right now. I'm ready.
But suddenly, my phone had a notification. My phone is in my pocket right now that's why I heard it immediately.
Basing from the sound of the notification, it's from my WeChat app, where I talk to my Chinese friends.
I got curious and opened it. My friend suddenly messaged me all of a sudden. And I'm in this kind of situation.
"Do you wanna call right now?" He said that made me stunned. He never told me that. He never asked me if I wanna call.
"Yes," I replied and he quickly called me.
This is our first call and I really don't know what to say. I can only say a lot thru chats.
"Hi?" I said.
"Hey, Elle" he said and he also called my name that made my heart skipped a beat.
And at that point, I talked to him the way I talked to him thru chats. Without a hint of trying to kill myself, I talked as if nothing's happening.
"Where are you, Elle?" He asked out of nowhere.
I went silent for a second but still managed to reply to him.
"I'm in the rooftop. Watching the stars. Why do you ask?"
He chuckled.
"Nothing. I just wanna ask"
