soulmate, pete davidson

032. love on the brain

  

the couple walked back in, applause ringing all around. pete went off with some of his friends while ash stayed with zoe, alexa, barbie, and maude. zoe broke the silence, "ash.." she took a sip from her drink, "i love him okay?"

alexa rolled her eyes, "baby, he isn't a good person." the others nodded in agreement. ash scoffed, "alexa i know. trust me. but he said he'd stop."

maude smiled at her sister, she loved her but boy was her sister stupid. "astrid i love you, but he said that when you first got back together. and with jacob you looked happier. you really did."

"jacob was just a rebound." she confessed. zoe looked at her knowing she's full of shit. if there was someone who knew her better than anyone it'd be zoe. she'd been through it all with her from logan to pete to jacob and now pete again.

"no he wasn't."

"he was."

"fucking shit astrid. pete's just going to lie to you again. it's like logan all over again just instead of all the shit he did. it's manipulation and gaslighting, he's hurting you." zoe's voice getting louder, heads start to turn.

she scoffed, "fuck you. you're mad i'm happy and you and sam's relationship didn't work out, once again."

"really?" zoe licked her lips, "you wanna fucking bring that up? fine let me bring something up; you've created a false version of pete, turns out he's never getting sober. oh! remember how he said he never ever slept with that girl?" by now everyone was staring at the two, "he's right he didn't fuck her then, cause he's fucking her now."

the crowd went silent. "you're lying" astrid mumbled walking closer to her. " you are and for that, i really fucking hate you."

astrid walked out with pete following behind her along with maude. "astrid." he said as they got to the car. "you don't believe her right?"

astrid stayed silent, "ash i'd never do that to you. i love you."

"pete look at me." he turned to her, "look me in the eyes and tell me you aren't sleeping with her."

from the cornor of his eye he saw zoe and alexa watching the two, "i'm not." he lied straight through his teeth once again knowing she'd believe it. 

and she did. over and over again, endlessly the lies continued. he'd be exposed and she'd fall right back into his. it was like a loop, he'd deny it she'd believe it and they'd move on.

she wrote too many songs about him, and she was well aware. yet no matter how much she fucking hated how he was, she'd still stay. the lying and sneaking out continued. it felt like he was a teenager and she was his mother, since he left without saying a word and came back at 3, 4, and even 5 am. she hated it. they hadn't kissed since her birthday, nor had sex. at this point, she was just his roommate. and she was not okay with that.

so instead of sitting her dumbass at home, she decided to go to the place she felt most comfortable, max's studio.

at max's is where she recorded 'better off'. max knew somewhat of what she's going through, and was curious to learn more but knew his place, he'd know when she wanted him to.