Light In My Darkness

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Past

'Give me your hand,' I say putting my hands forward waiting for Liam to take it.

'Oh, what you've got me a present?!' He asked.

'Come on,' I groan, he then finally took my hand into his.

I pulled him closer to me and placed my phone on the grass after turning on the music.

'You always want a reason to clung on to me like a Koala bear, isn't it?' He whispered into my ear and gave me a quick kiss.

'Maybe, but pay attention now,'

I pushed him back and twirled once before continuing. 'This is gonna be our first dance after our wedding!' I whisper into his ears.

'Aren't you a little too fast, buttercup?' He said, tucking my hair.

I lay my head on his shoulder closing my eyes.

'If it's you, ask me now, I will be ready for anything,' I say, smiling at him.

***

Present

Those moves, just like how I thought of him years ago.

I remember.

I pushed him away with every ounce of strength left within me. I move back with unsteady steps, I look back and forth between Eloise and Liam.

"Do I look like a play toy with whom you have all the liberty to do whatever you please?!" I yell with a quivering voice and a pounding heart that was not allowing any words to come out, I fist my palm to prevent myself from slapping him.

"Huh!" I scream, my heart was in my ears, my eyes were hot and burning.

"You!" I point out to Eloise, "Why are you doing this to me! you're weaving a spider web and luring into it, right? What did you think, by doing all this you'll be able to evoke all those dead feelings that I once had for him? That I'll run back to him once you're gone!" I yell at her, she flinched hard tearing up.

"Stop it, Ashley!" Liam said, he moved towards her, hugging her, she hid inside his chest as he stroked her softly.

It enraged me more, I was the one who was put through the trauma and she was getting consoled, I felt vulnerable, invaluable, like a piece of trash.

"You guys are pathetic, and you!" I said pointing at Liam.

"You promised that you wouldn't disturb me, right? I must be a fool that believed you, again!" I cry.

He let go of Eloise and walked towards me.

"I'm sorry, I-I," He said trying to hold my hand.

"Stop! Don't you dare come near me, you know what? What you are going through right now serves you right! I was pitying you all this while but I'm not, not anymore, you deserve this! You deserve to watch her di-" I stopped, I stopped from saying horrible words.

I clap my palms in the mouth.

"Look what you made me into, Liam, Look what you made say," I give a final glance at Eloise who looked at me with tear-filled eyes, she opens her mouth but I was not going to let her, so I walked out immediately.

***

Watching the flowing river helped to calm my rushing nerves, I was going through the old pictures of Kiara to distract myself from everything that happened today.

I could see how fast she grew right before me, but then my eyes froze on one particular picture.

Ian's