It was a week before our birthday, at the end of this week like on Friday or whatever that would be it. And to top it all off we had a magazine coming out a special issue that was supposed to just be us and our band.
I'd been marking my calendar for this day counting down the days. The guys were out by the pool, and I'd heard a knock come at our apartment.
I got out of bed, and circled the day on the calendar before x-ing it out. Today was the day. My phone went off. J: Hey, at the door come let me in. M: Be right there.
I quickly got dressed (outfit 44) (except you know the crop top part isn't a crop top it's a real top) I quickly brushed through my hair and went to the door to let Jack in.
On the other end is where he stood with the magazine with a smile on his face. I haven't even looked through it yet and I'm one of the people who took these photos for the magazine.
Yeah, I know. Come inside. Let's sit down and look at it. We sit at the kitchen table. Can I look at it first please? Whatever you want. But why? I wanna make sure everything accurate before letting anyone else look at it.
I looked at the cover looking at the pictures of our band, but even though I knew Jack took them and that their had been bound to be many of just me, there wasn't a single one of me in them, even though I knew I was in them all when they were being taken.
Someone had gone and edited me out of the pictures. It talked about BTR and about Griffin and G&K even about Jack. It talked about what kind of band we were and what kind of music we played. But....
"Four boys that started off as part of a hockey team from their hometown of ice and snow to beautiful California they quickly stole our hearts."
"Gustavo Roque has done a great job with this new hit band Big Time Rush and we can't get his songs out of our heads. How did they come up with their band name?"
"We turned to Kendall Knight, lead singer of the band and fan favorite and he says that it describes them perfectly about their lives and how they got there."
"This may just be Gustavo's best band yet, even if it is another all boy band group." "And don't these boys look great in these photos taken by none other than Jo Taylor's twin brother Jack Taylor honorary member of the band and personal photographer. He can really use that camera, what great camera skills."
"These boys are the next big thing, and they rocked their first tour, and still in a matter of hours went from tour to Octoberfest with a new song just for that night, even putting together in one night a dance for their school that they preformed on, and even still they surprise us with a full Holiday album finished in just several hours with guest appearances Miranda Cosgrove, and Snoop Dog. How do they do it?"
"And we hear it's none other than their very own Kendall Knight's birthday at the end of the week. How will the band celebrate their mates birthday?"
There had been no mention of me anywhere. Or pictures of me. Everyone was under the impression even that Gustavo had written all the bands songs. How did they not know who I was? Most of these people had probably seen our concert and Ken was not our lead singer, it was me and really didn't have a lead singer, and I helped come up with the band name, actually I did but Kendall really like it.
It's like I was invisible, but I knew in the pictures that I'd been there to take them, and that my boyfriend took a lot of pictures of just me in some of them. My eyes began to water, but I closed them and took a deep breath. How could they talk about Jack who wasn't even really in the band and not about me?! I blinked them back, and closed the magazine back up.
I'll be right back Jack I need to show Gustavo and Kelly something. But before I left Kelly texted me. Kelly: Kid we're so sorry, we just finished looking at it. Anything we can do to help? Me: Not tell any of the guys. Including Jack. They'll all make a big deal out of it. Also make sure no one else sees these magazines. Her: Ok sweetie, we'll work on that, I'm sorry.
There were even posters in the magazine but they still only just had the guys in them. It was like a bad dream I couldn't wake up from. Jack I'm going now, I'll be back soon, if the guys ask where I am tell them I went on a walk. Um Ok? I kissed his cheek and left.
He then turned to the window and saw it was raining. Farrah wait, he called after me. But it was already too late. I was long gone. Right now I was only mildly upset and kind of annoyed and bit angry but I'd be fine.
The guys never asked about me since it was their day off and slept in late, and I was back before they got up. I slipped the magazine under my pillow and pretended like nothing ever happened.
You ok? Yeah? I question him. Where's the magazine? I must've forgotten it at the studio. But you'll get your own copy when they come out.
Actually, do you mind giving me a moment I need to be alone to think. About what? It doesn't concern you. I shake my head. If the guys come back just please tell them not to bother me ok?
What's wrong little Snowflake? Jack asked hugging me. I'm just feeling really drained and tired Jack. Can you leave me alone please? But can you like leave me alone but stay inside of 2J?
Sure, he shrugs. I'll be out soon, I'm just gonna sit in my room and think and maybe rest some more, since I know it hasn't been long since I woke up.
I go to my room without a second word from Jack as I close and lock my door. I guess I was more hurt by it then I realized because as soon as I got into bed again tears fell down my face and I was too drained to wipe them away.
About 3 hours past and the guys came back in from the pool. Hey Jack where's Farrah? In her room doing who knows what? He shrugged. Why?
She said she needed to be alone to think, and needed more rest, that she was drained. Kendall frowned. What happened? He asked. What do you mean what happened? Jack asked confused.
How long has she been in there since she said that? 3 hours ago. Why? Kendall frowned glancing at my door. He tried the door but it was locked.
He texted me but I didn't respond back. Katie and mom were out for the day so it was just me and the guys. Did the exclusive magazines come out today?
I brought one over yeah. She looked through it. Then said she was going to RR to talk to G&K. Then about an hour later she came back and went back to her room.
Her door is locked. And she didn't respond to my text. Did it seem like she was upset or disappointed in something? Maybe a little Jack shrugged.
Farrah?! Kendall banged on the door. Open the door! Logan where are all the extra bedroom keys? 3rd drawer on the left in the kitchen.
No one bother us, do not disturb. I've got this trust me. I always slept on my right side, and the way I was faced the magazine was peeking out, and tears had still dripped down my face. He could tell I'd been crying.
Farrah? He asked me running a hand through my hair. Wake up. He pulled the magazine out from under my head from the pillow and looked at it.
No wonder she's upset, she's not in here at all. He checked my phone saw some texts from Kelly about the magazine. He knew he had my permission unless I told him he wasn't allowed but I trusted him.
He looked at my phone then the magazine and back again. He slipped it back under when he finished. He left my room since he wasn't getting anywhere with me.
Guys, there's no mention of her in here or any pictures of her. But I don't understand, Jack you took most of the pictures there should be like at least two full pages of my sister in here.
Let me see. You're right there's no trace of her in here. And Kendall cut back in, she was texting with Kelly about it, the said they hadn't gone out yet but we had a special see it before anyone else copy.
After some time Kendall got me up and began to comfort me, and then they fixed the problem and new magazines came out, the day before our birthday but this one had a different problem.
In it, the editors stated anonymously that "the chick from the band had complained about not being in the previous magazine, and now it's their birthday. But, it sounds like Farrah is just causing all kinds of drama and wants the attention, it turns out she says she's the one that wrote the band's songs, came up with the band name and that she was the band's lead singer. "
"She sounds very vain, and it's no wonder we missed her the first time she's still not really there. She's already short but she's so skinny next to the guys but at least our guys are buff. She doesn't even look like she eats. And what's with all the black? Is she some kind of damaged depressed, anorexic emo child?"
"Her brother and her band should be ashamed of her, and be embarrassed to be seen with her. She doesn't belong in the group. She's not pretty like other girls. Her boyfriend deserves better, if I were him I'm dump her, the band should be just the guys not the girl, that no one seems to even know. She's an attention vain hog."
"How did she meet the guys? Probably a charity they did for her out of pity, the only way a girl like her could get good with guys like them as if she's sleeping her way to the top. Which most people do."
I'd declared I'd seen enough of that. I called Kelly and asked her to do same thing that they did last time. I put the magazine in my room. The guys were out. The next day it was our birthday, I couldn't stop thinking about what the magazine said.
I'd cried myself to sleep, and wore really baggy clothes. I'd told the guys go do what they wanted with Ken, that Jack and I would catch up later. But, I told Jack I needed to be alone. Is this about the new magazines? Farrah? He asked me pulling my hand. There were red marks on it. Tears clouded my vision as one slipped my eye.
I ran away pulling my hand out of his grasp. He had gone to my room to look at the new magazine, and then called my brother. Hey, I don't want to ruin your special day, but.... We need to talk about this new edition of the magazine. Jack what's wrong?
I think Farrah's hurt. I'll tell you when you guys get back. When they did Jack pulled Kendall into my room and looked at the magazine. How bad is it? Worse than before!
I get the feeling she's not gonna want to be found right now and she's gonna be soaked it's raining again. When you say she's hurt.... It looked self made. Jack says stuffing his hands into his pockets as Kendall ran a hand through his hair upset.
Let's do something nice for her, something that will cheer her up. It's our turn to write her a couple of songs, and we're gonna need G&Ks help. They went to the studio and told them what happened, and what they wanted to do for me.
Ok. Gustavo ran a hand down his face. Get in the booth then. Once they were done. The rest of you meet us at our apartment, and we're gonna sing them for her. And they'll be new songs in general too.
Let me go find her, and take care of her, until we get back to 2J. I have a present for her too, but you guys won't like it if it means you're all a part of it too, if she tortures one of us she tortures all of us. She's gonna be happy to hear that one. Ken gave a small smile.
Are you sure? Carlos asked. There's no turning back. Logan reminded him. No taking this back. James finishes. You really want to be a full member of our group here and submit yourself? Kendall asked him. You know if one of us gets in trouble you will too cause we all will.
Trust me we've gone through this enough with her to know. Yes, I'm sure, but let's find her first and cheer her up. I want to go alone. Kendall said. Hand me one of those. He asks for an umbrella.
Once he finds me he calls out to me and I begin to run away. Farrah come back please?! I sit down hood over my face. He catches up to me. Farrah? Go away Ken!
He sits down next to me as I turn my head and not look at him. He pulls up my sleeve and frowns. I roll it back down. Tears are free falling down my face. Farrah? Come back to 2J.
He asks me hugging me. None of that is true. He brushes the hair out of my eyes. We have a surprise for you, and then so does Jack.
We sit there for a little bit, and hug each other. Let's go back. OK? I nod my head and give him my hand. We get back and he tells me to please go get dressed.
I *sigh* in defeat and go into my room and get dressed (outfit 45) Kendall sits me down at the couch next to Jack who hugs me. We put these together for you. Because we love you and wanted to do something to cheer you up.
When they were over they were right, it did cheer me up. Thanks guys. I wipe my tears. We'll fix it Farrah no one else has seen them. We can even right it ourselves, and Jack can edit it.
Speaking of.... Jack you had something for her? Come to your room. He pulls me along. You're gonna need all 5 of them. Ok, but just remember you literally asked for this.
You all know the drill. Actually I just need the 4 of them. And I'll but it on 4 this time. It's still Ken's birthday Jack will just take his place today all other times it will be all 5 of you.
I realize. Ok guys go sit. With a touch of my magic remote button and as promised when he wanted to fully submit himself he could choose how it happens and our deal I believe was my birthday anyways.
And when I'd let everyone go, and Jack was released. we kissed. This end of the day here was the best part of the day, even though the rest of the day sucked my brother and well my honorary ones are so great and I love them all to pieces.
At least we were the only ones that ever saw any of them. That could've been a lot worse. Well goodnight everyone even though currently 4am 6/15/19
