It all started with Madison Michele coming to Roque Records. She was there to do an interview. Everything was being recorded both with voice and video. She came to do an episode of backstage access. And this episode was all about and our band. Which in hindsight seemed pretty existing but I feared it would be just like any other interview process we'd been through before or the reality T.V. show that I shut down majorly quick even though the boys were no help at all. Like when that guy I forget his name but we were trained to act fact and that ended poorly. Or when Snake came to town or whatever his name was with the reality show. That had also ended poorly well I mean it was fine but only because I stepped in but it brought up some fighting. Just like like when we were all sharing secrets in a game or whatever with Lucy. That didn't go well either. Or when we went live on channel 5 or whatever at 5 am but they tried to cut us.
My point is anything live we do always has ended in disaster or rather start that way but I get involved in spite of my brother and our friends and how everything goes poorly. She said the viewers would be given access to where we live and play and were even going to visit the studio. Where she said we traded hockey skates for the Hollywood lights. And recorded the hit song that started it all. And then there we were with our headphones on in the studio popping up from nowhere singing the theme song with big smiles on our faces. She said that on the eve our second album release she had sat down to talk with us. She said she wanted to dish about the ins and the outs the ups and the downs. Which I knew then and there was gonna be bad right from the get go. She continued to say of the big time pop band that hopes to rule the world. This clip consisted of segments from that music video.
But now there the 5 of us (outfit 70) sitting in chairs cameras and lights in our faces as we sat by the pool. It was yet another interview but this one was live so if and when things went wrong I couldn't fix them as I nervously picked at my clothes or played with my hair and tried not to nervously smile so that I could pretend nothing bad was going to happen. In flashback or other. I begged G&K to fly Jack out so that I would have his support today and they had as he and Jason watched from the sidelines and I could hear and feel my racing heart beat like mad. Even my other friends and their Farrah's had come to watch for my emotional support. It had barely begun but already Kendall had taken my hand giving it a little squeeze in comfort. As if to say everything was going to be ok. But as he held my hand I know he could feel how fast my heart was beating through my pulse. My mind was racing 1,000 miles a min. Which the other mind readers could hear. And to top it off Ken could feel what I was feeling. Normally just feeling the comforting squeeze of his hand when I was nervous although trying not to show it gave me comfort but not this time it had done very little to settle my nerves which just made me more nervous.
It's not like we had anything terrible to hide we didn't have any secrets. Well except for me not that they would probably even ask about deep dark secrets and they can't compel people so I wouldn't give my secret away not that Kendall didn't know the truth now after signing said contract. But I thought back to any other live anything where trouble was caused. I feared one day it would be enough to make us all fight and want nothing to do with each other. My heart was racing so fast I couldn't breathe and I could feel tears prick the back of my eyes but I knew if they fell I would be asked about it. And me having a emotional break down was the last thing we needed on live T.V. She told us to say to hello to our national audience as we all smiled and waved and said hello. She said she wanted dig right in to our second album. Music no problem that's right up my alley. I could talk about that no problem. I just had to calm down first. And she also wanted to talk about our up coming tour. But first thing was first. Is it true none of you planned any of this? She asked us. Ok that first question was easy.
We all said no. Kendall said he wanted to play hockey. Carlos said it was James's is fault. As if there was any blame. Also it was also Farrah's fault as well. Wait how is it our fault? James cut him off. As if this were a bad thing. Uh oh I thought to myself. Raising of the voice pointing out blame? Not now to early for that too soon for that. But as I was already nervous before and getting nervous again I decided to use the tactic Jack told me to do. He first asked me what happens or what I do when I usually get nervous. To that I said I pick at my clothes or I play with my hair or squeeze my brother's hand and if I can't squeeze his hand like if he's not next to me or my hair is pulled up so I can't play with it or my clothes are tight against me instead of flowy any big emotion I always have has always led me straight to crying. As I explained myself I could feel myself panic as I recalled with him all the other interviews or live T.V. anything reminding him about what happened when they cut us on Channel 5 but the others cut other things to make sure we went and preformed.
