Chapter 22:
I just called it off with Draken,
I didn't mean to, it was just a spur-in-the-moment kind of thing. Can I take it back? I was definitely regretting but I want to stand by it.
"Haru, wait!" Draken came running after me,
I just stood there in silence, avoiding eye contact with him, I really don't want to talk about this anymore.
"Haru, I'm sorry," Draken apologized, but why don't I feel like I want to accept his apology?
I was torn, I didn't want to break up with him, but I didn't want to forgive him either. I know he wasn't over Emma, I know I accepted that condition when I agreed to go out with him but I think it was way too much that I had to apologize to Emma for being with Draken.
Plus, he said he regrets doing this with me. Then I don't know why are we still here, I want to be with him but only if he wanted to, I was fine loving him from afar, I was okay with just being friends with him, he was the one who asked us to be together so now that he's regretting, why is he venting out all his anger out on me?
"N-no," I stuttered, "You said you didn't mean it, but deep down I know you do, I don't want you to have regrets, okay?" I sincerely told him,
"Haru, Let's talk about this," He said with a worried look on his face,
"If you're worried about me doing anything stupid, I won't do anything," I told him, "I'm sure you can move on, on your own, but it's okay if you can't either, it's perfectly fine to love someone who's no longer here, I know she'll be happy if you do. Anyway, I'm leaving," I said as I gave him a faint smile then walked home.
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"You've been spaced out all day," Mitsuya said as we were having lunch in the cafeteria. Pah and Peh are in the faculty lounge because Peh got called in for wearing that gaudy shirt of his again, Pah was just with him for moral support.
"I'm just a little bit sad today," I admitted, "Seems like I can't do anything right,"
"You haven't done anything wrong," Mitsuya told me,
"Then why do I feel so bad?" I asked,
"This is because of Draken, right?" He asked, "You two broke up?"
I was stunned,
"W-what d-do you mean b-broke up? We're not dating!" I stuttered nervously,
"I wasn't sure at first but I last night kind of confirmed it," He laughed, "He wouldn't get jealous at us if you two weren't dating,"
"Well, we aren't anymore," I admitted shyly, "Besides, he doesn't even like me, he only went out with me because he knows I like him, he wouldn't mind that I'm gone either,"
"Then why is he calling you?" He asked as he was staring at my phone that was resting on the table, "You should answer it,"
I grabbed my phone to check the caller ID and it really was Draken, I wasn't really expecting Draken would call me, but I wasn't ready to talk to him. so I placed my phone back on the table but with the screen facing down.
"I'm not really in the mood to talk to him," I told Mitsuya who raised his eyebrow at me, "I really like him, I like him since we were 6 but not once has he ever acknowledged my existence, now that I think about it, maybe he only looked after me because Masaway-san told him to,"
"Draken isn't like that, you know that," Mitsuya told me, "Maybe it's because he hasn't moved on from Emma's death that's why he's being complicated but I'm sure he cares about you deeply,"
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The Brothel [Draken - Tokyo Revengers]
FanfictionI always wondered what went wrong? but then again, it was never right to begin with. I was with you from the start, but I wasn't what you wanted. Even when she left you, I'm still not what you wanted, because I can never be her, and I can never rep...