Complications With My Hero (Edited)

Chapter 13: Death

Your P.O.V.

I cut all ties with him. I didn't talk with him. I literally talked to everyone, but him. I didn't even stay in the same room as him. "Y/n, why are you ignoring him?" Cisco asked impatiently at me as he bit his licorice. 

"I told you, Cisco. I don't want anything to do with him and that's final." 

He sighed and left me to drink my Jitters coffee alone. 

Barry entered the room silently. I lifted my head to be met with his sad eyes. Not wanting to look at him, I lifted from my seat and left C.C. Jitters. I walked out and into the busy city. Randomly, someone held my hand making me turn around. I roughly pulled my hand away from him and whispered, "Leave me alone." 

He walked in front of me and held both my arms. "I said leave me alone." I pushed him away from me abruptly. 

"Please, let me explain." He said softly. 

I looked into his eyes and spoke just as soft, "I want nothing to do with you. Leave me alone. I thought I was wrong about you. I thought you actually did mean those words, but then you kissed her. You kissed her the same way you kissed me. With love and passion. I told you. You were better off without me. I told you… I told you to leave me alone." I walked past him and closed my eyes, trapping the daring tears from trickling down. 

"Damn it, Y/n! I said it was nothing!" He raised his voice. "It was an accident! The heat of the moment!" 

I turned to look at him as I walked backwards, "No, it wasn't." His face softened when he saw my tear stained cheeks.

"I even heard what you said before you saw me." I spoke as I stopped walking. 

He stood there, shocked. "I'm sorry."

I kept my strong features before speaking to the dumb ass, "You love her. You kissed Iris the same way you kissed me and in the end you told her you loved her… You told her you loved her." I repeated to myself more than him. 

I flew to Jitters ready to proclaim my love for Barry when I saw him and Iris leaving the coffee shop hand in hand. I stood there stocked and still. I saw as Barry's hand left Iris' to hold her waist as he let his other hand creep up to her neck. She lifted her head to look into his eyes, when finally their lips collided together. It was passionate, intimate, and loving. He smiled as he left her lips for a few seconds to say, "I love you." My tears came pouring out as I saw the action happen before me. Iris kissed him again and replied, "I love you too, Bar." He turned his head to walk forward when his eyes landed on my broken feature. His eyes widened in shock and he stepped away from Iris. "No.." he spoke before I ran away. I never talked to him afterwards, until today at least.

"You're not sorry, Barry." I said quietly. 

"You're not sorry at all."

I walked away and called Oliver, "I need a ride."

"Okay, I'll be there in a bit."

I waited at the train station, before Oliver came up to me, "What happ-" 

I interrupted him before he could ask the question, "I loved him. Even when I wasn't supposed to. I loved him." He held my shoulders and looked into my eyes, "I'm sorry." He said before walking me to the car. 

This felt worse than a break up. My heart was never going to be the same. I knew that, Oliver knew that, Barry knew that, everyone knew that. I just couldn't believe what I saw. 

I stayed in the lonely apartment for two weeks before I got a phone call from Caitlyn. 

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