Suicidal Screams

Chapter Thirteen

My tutor came to take the register and spotted me on the floor. She got Lola to take me outside. Lola pulled me outside into the watery morning sunshine and rubbed my back soothingly until I could breathe properly. She gave me a drink from her bottle of water which she got out of her backpack. We then sat down against the brick wall of the school, right next to the entrance. Late comers was still walking through the gates but we ignored them.

"So what is this all about then?" Lola asked kindly.

"Sean and Carla said they can't help me anymore..." I whispered brokenly. Lola looked at me sympathetically.

"Really? That's awful, Ad... I'm so sorry. Ignore my brother, he's been so awful lately that it's unbelievable." I shook my head slightly.

"It's not just that." I wrapped my arms around myself again.

"Then what?" I looked straight in front of us, not able to meet her eyes.

"It feels like I could have told them anything. I did tell them anything. I trusted them with the most awful parts of my life and this is what they do to me." Lola looked upset at that. She wrapped her arms around me, pulling me close. I was so depressed that I couldn't even get that flutter in my stomach which I usually got when Lola touched me. I just let her hold me, comforted by the touch.

"You know, I'm always here for you Adam." Lola pulled back slightly so she could look me in the eyes. Her arms were still around me. My emotions turned from depressed to a warm feeling as I looked into her soft eyes. She was so beautiful...

"I know..." I whispered. I didn't realize that we were getting closer and closer until her face was just inches from my own. I didn't want to stop though. I closed my eyes and closed those few little spaces until our lips had touched. We kissed a soft, gentle kiss. Our kiss slowly deepened. My hands moved to her waist. I hadn't realized how sexy her figure was...

"You two! Get to class or go to detention!" We jumped apart when a teacher came striding towards us. He had a face of pure anger on his red face.

"Sorry Sir!" Lola squealed as she sprang to her feet. She pulled me up too. Smiling, we ran into the school. As we ran to our tutor room, Lola's hand found mine and our fingers entwined. Once again, I felt myself again. Happy for once. I looked at Lola and I knew that I could get through this as long as I had her.