Suicidal Screams

Chapter Seven

I poured out my heart and soul to Brian Times. I told him everything. I said all about the abuse and self harm.

Or rather, I wish I had...

I told Brian about my dad dying and about my ex girlfriend. Brian listened and wrote notes, only occasionally interrupting to ask a question or two. Eventually the school day came to a close and Mr Cole came back. The supervising teacher was not with him. Brian shook my hand and wished me well before leaving me alone with the head. Mr Cole smiled at me.

"How did it go?"

"Good but... I don't want anymore sessions." Mr Cole looked surprised.

"But... If it went well then why would you want to stop the sessions?" I looked down at my feet. I couldn't ever look at someone in the eye when I was about to lie.

"Because I don't think it's helping me." The truth was actually that just before Mr Cole had come in, I had said about the marriage between Steve and Mum. Mr Cole had walked in before I could even say anything about the abuse Mum and I received. Maybe that had been a sign that I should keep my mouth shut before anyone did anything.

Mr Cole didn't believe me. I know he didn't. He didn't have to say anything because it was written all over his face. He wanted to help me but he couldn't help us. He couldn't take away Steve. He couldn't take away the pain... What could he have done that I hadn't tried already?