Steve came back drunk and gave Mum a ride to the hospital in her car. She came back drunk too. Steve would give her whisky to get her drunk so her story would be all fucked up. It was a mystery how Steve managed to get away with being drunk and driving a car himself. I wished that the Police would arrest him. They have done on accounts of GBH and other things. I sometimes wonder whether it was him who killed my dad. The two men had never been identified. So it could have been.
I heard them come back home. I didn’t go downstairs. I was lying on my bed with my wrists bleeding. I only had a cloth placed over the wounds so anyone who came in wouldn’t see. The sting... It felt... Better.
Some people don’t understand why others self harm. Well, it’s because self harmers like to be in control of their own pain. I could stop the bleeding, if I wanted to. But I didn’t. It was a relief to me.
Eventually I got up and cleaned the area. It looked less dramatic after it had been wiped down. The blood had dried over now but I still put dressings on. I only aimed for a relief. I didn’t always try to kill myself when I self harmed.
The house was silent and dark so that meant they had fallen asleep. It was peaceful. I liked it that way.
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Suicidal Screams
أدب المراهقينAdam's life is falling apart and he doesn't know how long he has left. Life couldn't get any worse... Or could it? *Based on a true story. Names have been changed for personal reasons* **Please note that this book contains graphic descriptions of su...
