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#107 Favorite WILD Song

freaking WILD messed me up badly okay

Ashton: WILD

Luke: THE QUIET

Calum: BITE

Michael: FOOL

((OKAY IF YOU LOVE ME PLS READ THIS LONG AF NOTE I'M V V SORRY ABOUT IT BEING SO LONG!))

Alright, alright, alright, I'm not completely sure where to start with this, so uh, here we go!

if any of you remember, about a year or so ago I told you all that I had anxiety. And that's a hard thing to admit, you know? Like it's something that makes you vulnerable, and it's a huge part of someone to come out and say that. But, I did. And since then, I feel so much closer to all of you then I did before. You all know something about me that half the kids that I'm friends with STILL don't know about me.

I can't exactly remember if I ever said that I had told my parents because it was really starting to take a toll on me-yknow? I was missing so much school and it was just awful. So, I told my parents and I was put into counseling for about two months. But it turned out that it just wasn't for me. I got put on some medication, which helped A LOT more than the actual counseling--and here I am almost five months later, and I'm a brand new person.

I still have anxiety, don't get me wrong. That kind of thing doesn't disappear after six or seven months of trying your hardest to get better. It takes years, but I'm a lot better than what I was back then. I'm doing things that would have been way outside of my comfort zone last year. I'm going to try out for Actor's Ensemble in the Spring, and I'm determined to try out for a play this year. I'm also starting dance classes (i'm really passionate about that) and to top it all off, I'm doing something that last year me would have died thinking about--I'm going to a school dance.

But that's not the weirdest part of all this. Last year, I could do these things after a lot of convincing and bracing myself but after it all I would STILL be incredibly nervous. That's the thing, I'm NOT nervous this year. I'm EXCITED to do this all, and that's the biggest accomplishment I've ever made. And I'm really proud of myself. 

And so, the reason I'm saying all of this is to tell you that anxiety, depression, or whatever doesn't have to hold you back forever. I really hope you can look at my story one day, and say that you want to be like that and maybe take the chance and go for it. Maybe counseling is for you-maybe the medication is what will work for you--but I know for a fact that there's something out there for all of you that will help you overcome this. Trust me.

I know right now it doesn't seem like that, and you think that nothing could be fixed, but trust me, it definitely can. I love you all so ALWAYS ALWAYS feel free to message me about anything, EVER. I love you guys! <3

qotu; raise your hand if you think the song WILD is written about connor franta *raises hand* -- no but seriously, have you heard WILD yet, and what's your opinion on it?

aotu; I LOVE IT SO MUCH OMG YOU HAVE NO CLUE HOW MUCH I FRICKING LOVE IT OKAY