5SOS BSM Preferences

Our2ndLife

-I'm working on a new update, I promise-

i feel like every fandom needs to put their love out to the our2ndlife fandom. and if not to the general fandom, at least help me out a bit here.

if you don't know, this is the last week of our2ndlife, the theme is goodbye week.

i am incredibly sad, because while i haven't been there from the beginning, these boys have been the best year and a half of my life and i'm so proud of them. they have accomplished so so so much, from singles to tours to being on mtv and winning a tca. i'm really happy for them, and so proud

but i am so sad that it's ending. while i know nothing last forever, i can't help but feel a bit like i've been betrayed. for me, o2l was always something i could turn to, any day of the week with something to make me feel better. always. even if no one posted that day, there was always something i could look at to make me feel better, be it their tweets, vines, snapchats--whatever.

they were just always there for me. and while there's a lot of people who do that now for me, like 5sos, when i first found our2ndlife, i was sick and it was halloween (yes, i remember this exactly.) and they were doing prank week, i believe. and it changed my life. i don't know why or how, but suddenly everything was happier and i could see a light at the end of the tunnel, basically.

and when connor left, i thought my life was 100% over. and i've only watched a few full weeks of our2ndlife in the five months he's been gone. while i've watched full weeks after they've passed, it's been really hard for me to keep up with them when they're posting for the week just because when connor started the week, it was on a monday, not tuesday and i don't know, it was just harder tbh once he left.

and nothing was the same after that. and i don't know, i just miss a lot.

i miss when they spent more time together. i miss connor. i miss ricky's bunny. i miss when sam didn't have tattoos. i miss jc telling us to stay cloudy. i miss x-factor trevor. i miss kian's adorable hair. i miss when it was lawlorff, not jian. i miss when connor, ricky, jc, and kian would do roommate videos. i miss when those four lived together. i miss kian's music videos. i miss rickian videos. i miss the six/six videos we got every now and then. i miss the pool videos. i miss 2013 o2l, basically.

and after realizing all of this, it's surprising to see how far these boys have come and how proud of them i am.

but that's all over now. i don't know, guys, i'm just really really really sad and i don't know.

sometimes i still cry over connor not being there, and i don't know what i'm going to do without them there.

but what happens, happens i guess.

our2ndlife was the best thing to happen to me. they weren't my second life, they really were my life.

so yeah, it might be over, but it's never gone. not to me. our2ndlife will always be that group that i can count on to make me happy. even if there's no new videos. our2ndlife is infinite, and will live on forever. our2ndlife is legendary and will continue to be, and i'm so proud of them.

so here's to our2ndlife.

here's to the best year and a half of my life

thank you, o2l.

so much.

-sydnaynay_