I Should've Known: Book Two

Hazel

He's been quieter than usual. Maybe it's his internship. I remember my first year was a mess. I was a mess. I barely had four hours of sleep and I would cry after taking an exam I would study two whole nights for.

Adam was always there. He always held me and wiped my exhausted tears away. He always brought me snacks and reminded me to take naps. He always called me in between my day and ask me if I have eaten yet.

I fell in love with him.

What's different now? Will forever look like that? Was Madds ever this nervous when she decided to marry Mateo?

I can't even ask her anything. I haven't talked to her this whole week. Now I won't even see her tomorrow for thanksgiving since she's going to spend time with Mateo's parents.

Dang. I should check if I'm working thanksgiving evening. I hope not. Perhaps we can fix whatever is going on inside his heart. But...will it ever be fixed unless I say yes?

I look up at the large white board with the schedules. My name isn't under thanksgiving but some of the nurses will be there. Poor Ash. She was hoping to celebrate with her little brother.

I wonder if Adam is working on thanksgiving. He tends to tell me if he works on important days like thanksgiving.

My stomach flips as I go back to the Children's Ward. What if he regrets being with me? If he leaves, I will have no one. Again...

No. Stop. This is Adam. He wouldn't do that. He promised. He's shown that's always been him. I should know that he would never break my heart.

By the end of the day, I have completely forgotten of these dangerous thoughts with the laughter of children. Some of the sweeties were crying with pain but I always knew how to at least make their tears hurt less. Some of them did kick and bite me, but that's normal. It's a miracle if I don't get bitten two days straight.

I've decided that OBGYN is not my speciality. Especially after the abortion incident on my first day. I think Dr. Aaron sees this and lets me be with Dr. Karev. I have to say, he is not that scary. Birthing Center is more terrifying.

I say goodbye to a certain little girl that's passing by in a wheel chair. She was just coming out of Shrinks Land with her mother. That's what the nurses call the Psychology Department.

My smile disappears when I see Adam coming out of a room with a clipboard in hand and a woman by his side. His eyes sparkle. They're sparkling even though his smile is not as wide as it gets when he's with me. Her eyes also shine up at him. He's still much taller than her but she is at a better height with him than I am.

Wait. Stop. Why are you jealous? They're only colleagues.

I can't help let my stomach flip at the way she says goodbye to him. She gives him a smile that even gives me shivers and her eyes linger on him until she turns a corner. I cannot get the way her hand touched his arm out of my head now as Adam notices me. He gives me his sweet wave and I have to swallow my dangerous thoughts down my dry throat before giving him a tight smile.

"You're out so early," he softly says as he gives my cheek a quick kiss.

"Yeah. Who was that?"

Really, Hazel?!

I keep my expression blank as he furrows his brows. "Who? Janelle?"

Janelle. What a stupid name.

"Is she new or something? I haven't seen her before."

"Yeah. She's a transfer. From Memorial Hospital."

"Our rivals. I see how it is. She's probably a spy."