lowercase intended. minor trigger warning. g!p. 45chapters.
Jhene was a regular down to earth girl from philly pa. In love with her crystals and spiritual practices . her life was great she had loving parents a nice home. everything was fantastic...
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recap i turned into her embrace snuggling my head into her neck. she rubbed my back playing with the silk of my bonnet.
i could get used to this. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
in the middle of the night i woke up to shaking. but it wasnt me. i woke up to see what it was. ohmygod please dont be a earthquake. i cant stand this LA shit. i almost cried at the thought.
but it wasnt a what but a who. billie was shaking in her sleep, her eyes were open. i snapped my fingers in her face. "billie ?!" i waved my hands. but got nothing.
is this a night terror or some kind of seizure?
i got up out of bed not knowing what to do. i didnt want to wake up my father. something is telling me shes gonna be ok. but this shit is creepy im scared for her.
i didnt want to touch her because obviously something is happening to her in her dreams. i turned on my lights looking for somethings that can help calm her down.
i found my lucky candle, i love it so much. i grabbed my amethyst cluster and celestite tumble stone. i opened my window so that i can sage over her convulsing body.
i got back in bed sitting in criss cross apple sauce looking over her body. i wanted to cry, she's still sleep. she's still living in that recurring nightmare. it was heartbreaking,
her eyes were open still she was looking right at me. she wanted to wake up but she couldnt. i wiped my tears, "ma dre please help me wake her." i prayed to her.
i got my phone playing a soft piano instrumental so that i could talk over it. i cleared my throat preparing myself to speak, "hello soleil. its me selene. its not a trick hunny im here. i hope this is working and im not talking to the wall."
i giggled, "baby youre scaring me. i need you to come back. its not real the dream.. it isnt real. i am. im going to hold your hand ok ? its only me." i went to touch her and she jumped a bit.
"its me baby let me hold you." i rubbed the back of her hand until i was able to hold it fully. "there you go. see its only me. just come back to me. im gonna rub some oils on your forehead ok ? its only me remember." but when i went to touch her she started to shake more.
i stopped my movements and just put the scent under her nose. hoping that the lavender would calm her down a bit. a minute later it did.
i leaned down a bit to whisper in her ear. maybe i can do some hypnosis shit, i dont know im desperate. "i know you can hear me baby. i want you to associate my voice with the moon baby. i want you to see the full moon straight ahead shining as bright as it can."
shes still shaking but its slowing down poor baby is wearing herself out. i know i should sing to her but i dont know what. "follow the moon. follow me. i can help you out but you have to follow my voice baby."
(an: #disneyqueen start the header. this one sounds kinda creepy but the lyrics relate so..yea gotta do what i gotta do LMAO)
"stay awake dont rest your head. dont lie down upon your bed. while the moon drifts in the skies. stay awake. dont close your eyes. though the world is fast asleep. though your pillow's soft and deep. youre not sleepy as you seem. stay awake, don't nod and dream. stay awake, don't nod and dream" i sang to her. she didnt wake up so i sang again. she stopped shaking and i silently celebrated.
i started to sing again and she squeezed her hand. "yes baby follow the moon. stay awake. dont close your eyes. dont nod and dream." i sang and moments later she shot up gasping for air.
i cried tears of joy looking at her not knowing if i should touch her or not. once she was done looking around the room her eyes landed on me. she started to cry "is it you?" i nodded and pulling her into a hug.
"i heard you selene. i followed the moon like you said. im here now right ? this is real right ?" she asked hyperventilating.
"yes hunny shh shh i dont want you to panic. youre here. im real. youre ok. here drink some water. do you want tea ?" i asked her handing her the water.
"no i want you to stay here please. im tired. i want to go to sleep but i dont want anymore nightmares." she whined.
"shh its ok. it wont happen again tonight. ill make sure of it. now lie your head back its ok." she laid back giving me an opportunity to straddle her.
i hummed another lullaby, "dont let your heart be filled with sorrow. For all you know tomorrow. the dream that you wish will come true."
i picked up the lavender oil dabbing it on my fingers. once i had enough, i drew the eye of nazar on her forehead. with the intent of casting these bad energies and dreams out of her head and out of her life. "Tu n'es pas le bienvenu ici." (translation: youre not welcome here.)
i looked down at billie's face. she was asleep again, more peaceful. her floofy eyebrow was moving but i didnt think much of it.
i quickly got up to turn off the lights. i heard her whine and immediately came back. lifting the covers up i got back under straddling her waist.
"im here go to sleep sh sh." i hushed her. i kissed her forehead and then her heart. she rubbed my thighs in content. not meaning anything by it just needing confirmation that im here. i played with her ear and fell asleep.
time skip next morning ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 8am.
not only was i being woken up again. but it was by 2 different things. someone is shaking me and im sitting on something. the shaking stopped so i fell back asleep.
but i felt something press up against me with a little more force. i rocked and i whined until i shaken again but this time it was a heavier shake.
i immediately hopped up, thinking the worst ready to call 911. but i look down and its billie. "why the fuck are you shaking me?!" i questioned her getting mad.
still feeling that same feeling under me. i rocked a little trying to get it but when i did billie's faced contorted like she was trying to hold something back.
i hovered a bit trying to grab whatever was under me. "bro what fuck is this—omg." i grabbed it hard. a moan was let out. billie's eyes widened, she went completely red.
"i need a cold shower."
i have no life yall😩i really couldve been doing some classwork but .. hmmm i have time before its due
#procrastination.
it looks like me with freetime means way more updates so imagine me throughout my spring break next week💀
but anyways i tried to end this little emotional chapter off with a light laugh LMAO.
majority wins its g!p. my next book will def have to be gxg bc i had ideas for it that i obviously cant use now.
