𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐌𝐞 -𝐁.𝐄.

goodbye? (2)

recap
im shaken out of thoughts when the limo comes to a stop. we were at the church. my stomach began to turn and knees started to buckle before i even got up. my father noticed and held my hand.

fuck 2020.
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goodbye? why do i have to say goodbye to the woman i loved the most? why did i have to feel like this? she was perfect. she couldve stayed longer. why did the universe take her away?

i am looking at her in her casket. she still looks oh so peaceful. how could she have left me so easily? was i not worth fighting for? she was the light of all our lives. now its just dark. she knows i hate the dark. did she hate me? maybe she did.

ill be watching you. that song lyric just came so randomly. what the hell. ok maybe she didnt.

i go to kiss her cheek. but i guess it was too much for me to handle. my legs went weak and i collapsed. i heard screams and saw blurs of people running towards me. then it all went black.

i woke up in the limo. my head on my fathers lap and my feet kicked up with my shoes off. "what happened papa?" i looked around starting to stretch.

"you fainted dear. how are you feeling?"

"tired. wheres ma dre?"

"here." he pulled out a pretty yellow urn.

"ouu looking good mom." i said smirking. then i heard a snicker. i looked at my father trying to hold a laugh back. i couldnt even think of my actions first before i bursted out laughing. we were in the back of the limo howling to the thought of my mother having a pretty urn. life's good.

once the limo stopped we got out. we were home. omg i missed the whole family gathering part. awesome.

"are you too tired to bring down the boxes in your room ? you can do it in the morning but itll have to be really early. our flight will be ready at 8 so ill get you up at 6. make sure you have that bag pack.." i cut him off.

"packed for 2 weeks because the rest of the clothes and house things may take too long to come. yes i know papa." i giggled walking to my room. "thank you for the reminder i got it! ill start bringing them down now. the car nap and laugh session energized me a bit."

"ok bonne nuit belle. à demain." ok goodnight beautiful. see you tomorrow. he said while going to the guest room. he hasnt slept in their bed since. i started to bring down my boxes. this is definitely counting as a arm leg and back day right now.

once i was done with the last box i hopped in the shower for a minute. i didnt want to take a long one because i know itll wake me up and ill stay up all night. so i did that and drank some tea so i could relax. once i hit my bed i was out cold.

time skip next morning ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

my alarm woke me up at 6am. my head was pounding. i groaned pulling the covers over my head telling myself, "just a few more minutes."
until i sighed in defeat knowing ill be the reason we missed our flight if i did. so i sat up, stretching my arms out. drinking the water in my coldest water bottle.
(an:that water bottle had a chokehold on them tiktokers yo💀)

once i felt hydrated enough i hopped out of bed. shivering in an instinct. now im about to be pissed off because why is it so cold. oh yea my fan's on ..lol.
since im going to be in a damn airport all day,im just going to put on something comfy.

i took the coat back off for a second to deal with my hygiene. i went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth and washed my face. when i was done i looped the coat around my arm and dragging my suitcase down the stairs in the living room. i realized my father was in the kitchen.

"bonjour papa." i swear you would think we're from france based on how we speak french like this.

"bonjour Mademoiselle!" he exclaimed. someones happy. "i made us a smoothie to take. you can make you a bagel and we can be on our way." he explained while spreading the cream cheese on his own.

i nodded my head going to pour my portion of the smoothie in my shaker bottle. i went to drink some it was so good.

"mmm this is so good papa! strawberries?" i asked while sipping from it again. he nodded his head with a grin. i put the bottle down going to find the raisin bagels. once i found them i put them in the toaster then putting cream cheese on it.

i took a bite out of one and nearly moaned. i always forget how good they are until i eat them again. once i was finished with that one i put the other in aluminum foil and a ziploc bag saving it for later.

i checked the time and jumped to the living room.
"omg PAPA ! we're going to be late ! lets go!" i shouted. his eyes popped out his skull once he realized it was going on 7:30.

we sprinted to the limo. our personal cars and the rest of our belongings we packed will be brought to us. once we started to drive i relaxed a bit. then i fell asleep.

by the time i woke back up we were here.
"oh youre up. perfect timing. we made it we still have time. get up so we can get our bags." papa said while unbuckling his seatbelt.

i did the same following him out the door. we got our bags going to our terminal.

after a little while of waiting our plane was finally called. we sped walked to the departure place not having enough energy to run but not wanting to miss our flight. literally the worst time to be flying. its new years.

posting this to my story on ig before i went to sleep .. again. but my thoughts began to spiral. im really leaving everything. going across the damn country. not new jersey. L fucking A. no friends. no mom. no favorite cousins. no family home.

i guess i really have to say ..goodbye?

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