Dark and Light

Chapter 11

   ***Thomas POV***

              I realize now that I was the one she was talking about on that balcony. After hearing those words. It makes my heart hurt. Knowing that she feels she isn't good enough for me. That's it. I am done with this now. She needs to know how special she is. We need to put everything on the table here and now. She must hear it. She must hear me. I put my hands on her face. Her eyes are full of tears. Tears from the hurt not only has she had in the last year. But her whole life. Almost every man she has ever loved left her. All but one choosing to. Willingly at that. She needs to realize that I am not them. I never will be. Her birth father left. Her daughter's dad was never present. The man she was supposed to rebuild all of that with obliviated any hopes for happiness. I saw it at the beginning. In her dark eyes. The hurt and the pain. I never fully understood until I just saw her. I know Les Mis and I know it well. If you have seen the musical you know Epinine's true pain. No love from anyone. She has her heart on the knight in shining armor. Even after having her heart destroyed so many times. By everyone around her father included. In the end she loses him. To the blonde beauty that has everything she ever wanted. It's heart wrenching. Then she sacrifices her life for him. The only happy moment she had is dying in his arms. It's tragically beautiful. It's Sabrina. In her eyes it's her life. When I heard she had lessons today there was nothing going to stop me from seeing this. It was clearly her true way of expression. When I saw what I saw, knowing what I know about the singer in the song. I got it. Chris had told me what she was dealing with. Now I saw what her true story was. Her entire life she has tried to trust. Always having it broken by men. This goes beyond me. This is her core hurt. What I watched was completely earth-shatteringly beautiful ballet. I have never seen anything like it. True talent. Passion so raw and real. Truly stunning. Here she is completely being open with me. Sharing exactly how she feels. "I am not any of them. You do know that don't you? I'm not any of the ones in the past. Not your exes, not your birth father and not Chloe's dad either. I am here. I am not going anywhere. I know that me leaving is hard for you with your past. I promise you that I don't want anyone more than you. You have made me feel things I never have felt before. In ways I never thought possible. We can make this work. We will fly back and forth. I do a lot of filming her in America. You and Chloe can visit the sets. She would love that. My darling, I want this. All of this. All of you. All your life. I want you to share all of me and mine too. I know it's been a very short amount of time. I am completely head over heels for you. Darling, I love you." She gasps at my confession. "Thomas, I love you too." I pull her in close and kiss her. With all the love I can put through in a kiss. We pull apart after a few moments just standing in silence. She asks. "What we do now?" I kiss her forehead "We enjoy each other for today. Before my Little dear comes home tomorrow. It's going to be hard not to be able to touch you like this whenever I want though my love." I sigh. "We just will have to be sneaky. You know how to play sneaky don't you?" She giggles. "I do. Well as I have been told." My arms wrap tighter around her.

              We spend the day relaxing with our friends. Before they leave very early in the morning. It was fun to just spend time with them. Watching movies. Playing board games like we were kids. Chris is very competitive. I didn't realize my love was just as bad. It's cute to watch her holding her own against such a large man. Later in the day we took a swim and had a light lunch. God she looks good in that green bikini. I love that she wear Loki's color a lot. It's very flattering to me. They are very flattering on her as well. I could gaze upon her all day. From her hair to her face, down the neck to shoulders, her breast, stomach, her thighs, the beauty I know that is in between them, to her legs and she even has adorable feet. She is just everything a man could ever want. Beauty on the outside. Even more so on the inside. My love. How did I get this lucky to have her love me too? Yes it's fast. I always heard when you know, you know. "Tom, as much as I like the fact you two have found each other. If you could. Please try to not look at my sister as though you are going to devour her in front of me. I would appreciate it." Chris wakes me out of my daze. "I would normally apologize. However, my friend, I don't feel sorry at all." I grin at him. He mumbles "Gross." I laugh. "In all seriousness Tom, I am happy for you. Nevertheless, while we are alone. I would like to talk to you man to man. I know you are a good man. I have seen what you have been through. I know you hurt as well. It's not just Sabrina I am so protective of, so you are aware. There is Mom and Chloe that are my concern also. I made a promise that I would always protect them. If any of them get hurt in any way I will keep that promise. Children like my little wombat have been through enough. Too much loss and fighting for a girl her age. Women like Chloe and mom also. Am I making myself clear?" He asks. I have never heard Chris act or talk to me this way. He does really look at her as a sister. "Crystal clear. I hope you know me well enough by now. I only want to make them all happy as I possibly can. I must ask why so protective? It's not a normal thing for a man to be quite this way with their wives' friend." I ask. "I have no sisters like you do. She has made sure to always been there when my wife, kids or I have ever needed. To be perfectly honest for a while I was kind of hoping she would be my sister. Her and my brother are extremely close. Neither sees the other that way. And well. You've met Wombat now. Tell me how I couldn't adore that girl? She is a fighter. She like her mother and grandmother are the sweetest souls imaginable. They all radiate this light as I am sure you have noticed. They need to be protected from the world. I have been happy to be the one to do so." He was sincere, very sincere. "I promise you, Chris. I will give them the world. I am more than happy to protect them along with you." I put my hand on his shoulder, he puts his on mine in understanding. "Good. Now how nervous are you for tomorrow?" He laughs. "Terrified. Excited but terrified. What if Chloe doesn't care for me? Of course, I must be a complete gentleman around her and grandmother. I don't think it would be appropriate to be like we are now in front of them. I may struggle with that. Do you know hard it's going to be knowing she is sleeping in the next room? Knowing I can't be next to her?" I have a million thoughts in my head. He tries to make me feel better saying everything will be fine. To just be myself. To take it a day at a time. Let's hope this all goes well.