Dark and Light

Chapter 20

Chris POV

My poor beautiful. I hate seeing her like this. A broken mess cradled in my arms now. Sitting on the floor with her on my lap. Sobbing so hard. All because of Tom. I'm still in utter shock he did this. I can't wrap my mind around it. I wrap my arms tight around her. "How. How could I be this stupid Chris? How could I ever think for one second I could have this? Could be loved?" She sobs harder as her body shakes. My thoughts are distracted. She called me Chris. Not Evans like she usually does. Or The Evans like Clo does. Which always makes me laugh. Oh my god. I love hearing my name from her mouth. I can't believe she thinks that of herself. How could she not be loved? She is amazing. Smart, funny, beautiful, graceful and elegant. Not to mention that she can have fun and be silly. Loves football. All Boston sports at that. Disney like I do too. She can be a tad bit geeky. Which I love about her. She loves Marvel so much. I swear she knows more about my movies and my character than I do. It's adorable to watch her fangirl out. The thought makes flash back to earlier at the club. Tonight when she met RDJ, Mackie and Seb for the first time in person. Her eyes got huge from what Seb told me. I thought I had heard her giggle but I pushed it of my mind. Thinking I was just losing it. Having obsessed with her for some time now. I tried to keep the attention to the girl In front of me but I couldn't. She wasn't her. She wasn't even close to being anything like her. Not a thought in her head beyond her looks. I tried to talk to her about books things of that nature. She just gave me a spaced out look. I needed to find a way to try to get her off my mind though. I needed to move on. She and Tom where together. I'm not the kind of man to pursue another man's woman. That is just wrong in so many ways. Especially when they are a friend. Even though I did make my intentions known after our "friendly" dinner the other night. I knew he was going to do this and I told him so. Beautiful had told me that things didn't seem right. I made sure to let him know I was not going anywhere. Before I stormed out. I focused on what ever the blonde's name was while listening to Bradley introduce the lady he is with to our friends. Then the blonde puts her hand on my knee. It feels wrong. I was grateful when Robert tapped me on the shoulder. I had an excuse to move her hand. I was shocked when he handed me a shot. That's so not like him. I looked up confused and thanked him. He winked at me. Odd. "Don't thank me man, thank the stunner at the end of the couch there." He smiles. I look over. It's her. He snickers. I talked to him about her. Trying to get some advice on how to let this go. I noticed she wasn't with Tom. I also noticed how close Seb was to her. I didn't like that at all. She gave me this cute little hand wave. Adorable. Thankfully he got up to talk to Bradley and what I assumed was her friend Audrey. They were supposed to be traveling together. I jumped at the chance. After ogling her for a moment. In that very fitted very short red dress. My jaw had to have hit the floor. I have never seen her like this in person. Only in the picture Hemsworth showed me before I went to her house. I had to meet her as soon as I could when I saw it. Her legs are astounding. An imagine of them wrapped around me flashes through my mind. My hand on that thigh. Me buried in her. Tasting her lips. Hearing her moan out my name. F*ck. Stop. This is your friend's girl I had to tell myself. Then I sat next to her. Eyes not moving from her. When I asked where Tom was and she told me. I could have ripped his head off right there. Until her eyes pleaded with me. Her telling me she wanted me to stay with her, get drunk with her, and dance with her. The idea of being able to be that close to her on a dance floor calmed me right down. Excited me in other ways. I poured her another shot and filled her champagne. I reminded myself to watch her. She gets a little sick on tequila she has told me before. I thought it sweet when RDJ asked her to dance. He knew she needed it. I told him also how much she adored him. He ate that up of course. He was probably trying to make her forget all her pain tonight. When she kissed me on the cheek I almost fell over. Watching her walk away was mind numbing. I never noticed that sway to her hips before. My smile broadened when she looked over her shoulder at me. Her giggle passing her lips, those eyes twinkling. I fall for this woman more so every time I look at her. I let it go when she danced with Seb. Even though I hated seeing his hands all over her like that. She needed this moment I could tell. To know it wasn't her. It was him. I will talk to him later. He is a good friend. Especially when I explain it's the woman I have been talking about. I was happy to see them having fun together. Her letting go. Taking funny pictures with her. Making her feel better. I have good friends. They want to be her friend. When they where done. I sat next to her putting her ankles in my lap. Rubbing them because those heels are very high. That and it gave me the chance to have her legs in my hands. On my lap. She is still so short and little next to me. It's so cute. Which I texted him slyly when they were done. He just smiled at me. I know him. Then he whispered to Mackie. I knew from his grin that Seb told him exactly who she was. Then I got have her close to me. On the dance floor. Not holding back. Her body grinding on mine. Until I saw him. Raging behind her. I smirked at him. Making sure he saw me run my hands up her thighs as she put hers on the back of my head. Running her fingers through my hair. Which felt incredible. Making him look like he was about to burst. It was time to start calling our "friendship" out for what it is. To make my intentions known. She chose. She chose to leave with me. I hope that means she is choosing me to be by her side in a different way as well. I kissed her tonight. Not as deeply as I had hoped. My tongue longed to explore her mouth. I understand why she pushed me away. I will take this slow. Follow her lead. I am not going to do what he did that's for sure. I want her to know she is special to me. After seeing her in that red lace number though. That will be hard. Even more so when she came out wearing her jammies. That were themed on me. Well my character at least. Making my heart swell. Her hair wet. Looking too sweet for words.