Dark and Light

Chapter 16

               ***Thomas POV***

              The most awful feeling I have ever felt overtakes me as I walk away from her. The gentleman driving me opens my door and puts my luggage in the trunk as I sit in the back seat. I watch her start to sob as she closes the door. How I want to run to her and console her, but I can't. I kissed my little dear goodbye this morning. Half-awake she told me she already misses me, and she loves me. Hurry back Thomas. She says as she falls back to sleep. The feeling of leaving her is devastating. My girls are heartbroken because I am leaving. I have heard my friends and colleagues speak of how this feels but, I never had experienced it until now. They are right nothing feels worse than this. The driver gets back into the car. He asks me how I enjoyed my stay here. I tell him that it was the most extraordinary week of my life my friend. "So, we will see you again Mr. Hiddleston?" He asks. I let him know many more times indeed. He starts the car as we head to the airport. Normally I try to dress well in public. That is what some except from me. Today its jeans, a tee shirt, with a zipped up hooded sweatshirt. I hide myself underneath the hood with a cap and sunglasses. I can't deal with fans right now. I am not in my right mind space to be the normal me. My heart hurts and I am in pain. I need to be alone. I can't be all smiles and give them what they normally see me do. I check in to my flight and the airline attendant says that there has been a change in the scheduling. To follow her. I am confused and nervous that I may not make it home in time. I ask and she says not to worry Mr. Hiddleston. We have you all taken care of. I am led to a terminal with no one in it. A gentleman in a uniform is waiting for me it seems. "Good morning Mr. Hiddleston. I am Gerrie. I will be your pilot today. Miss Sabrina called me yesterday to make sure you were well taken care of. She is a wonderful woman as you know. I have been graced with the pleasure to be working for her. Understanding the situation as I do I offer my services today to see you get home safe and sound. She felt you may need some privacy. She has let your assistant know the change in your travel plans. Our steward is Colin today and he will be taking your bags from here. Please follow me." He says as he ushers me to my gate. My darling, she truly knows me well. She always thinks of things I need before I even do. How wonderful it is that she puts my needs in front of hers. She knows this is as hard for me as it is for her, and she is trying to ease it for me. Always thinking of me first. I don't know how I got so lucky. Gerrie speaks up almost like he knows what I am thinking. "Mr. Hiddleston you are truly a blessed man. That woman is beyond an angel. Because of her my son hasn't has a seizure in six months. I was laid off during the pandemic. Not only did she give me this job, but she also made sure we had health insurance for the whole family. She paid for the surgery that made my boy better out of her own pocket. Our family is deeply indebted to her, and I am happy to say to you as well. I'm glad to see she found someone. She deserves to be as loved as much as she gives to the world around her. Whenever you need me here is my card. I was told to give you it. In case you ever want to come home she said. That girl of hers is amazing by the way. She helped my son Brad so much through his journey. You have astonishing women blessing your life sir." He tells me sincerely. "Yes Gerrie I do. Please call me Tom and it's my pleasure to meet you. I'm glad to hear your son is on the mend and doing so well. She truly is a remarkable child. With an angel for a mother. I am very blessed for them both. If you ever need anything please let me know. I am happy to be of service for you." I say as I take my seat.

                 "Tom would you mind taking a picture with me to send him?" He asks cautiously. "My honor." I reply. I take the picture with him. He thanks me. I buckle my seat belt and we begin the journey. Colin asks me if I need anything. I say I am fine and would like to be alone for a bit please. I will ring him if I need. He nods his head and walks away. I put in my earbuds and listen to the playlist I made for her. Firefly by Ed Sheeran floods my ears and I break with no one around and sob. Looking at the pictures in my phone of me and my girls. I pick my favorite of the three of us from last night. In Sabrina's bed. No, it's now our bed. About to supposedly watch a movie all in our geek out gear as my little dear put it. With her in the middle of us. Looking like a family. I set it as my wallpaper on my phone, I also do something I swore I never would do again. I am going to post it on all my social media pages. I haven't been active in for a very long time. I want to share with the world my wonderful new family. Writing to them both my words of love and regret I will be gone so long. Letting them know we will back together as soon as I can. How much they mean to me. How much I love them. Letting the whole world know how important they are to me. Making sure to mention Chloe's team so that maybe we get more donations for the kids and parents like the one I just met. I thank Chris and Elsa for introducing her to me. I press the post button just as we take off. I listen to the recording of her giggle and telling me she loved me. I cry more. "Mr. Hiddleston sir?" I hear Gerrie over the intercom. I find myself doing the same thing as my queen and princess do. Brushing it off of my body by movement. The thought makes me smile for a moment. I remind him to please call me Tom again. He apologizes. "I have a message for you if you could please give me a moment." I hear her voice. "My love, my heart. I miss you already. Please dry your tears. We will be here waiting for you." The sound of my love's voice. "I love you and will talk to you later. Miss you bunches. Please don't be too upset. We will be together soon. I will tell you all about drama club today. I am trying out for one of the main parts. And guess what its Shakespeare! Tons of hugs and kisses Thomas!" Oh, my little dear as always trying to mend everyone's heart. I am so proud she is finding her confidence. Even more proud she is doing it through her mother and my love of Shakespeare. So blessed I could help by just a text to a few friends. Also, sad I won't be able to be there to be there at the end of the day to see how it went. To support her either way. "As I said Tom, truly remarkable women you are blessed with." Gerrie says over the intercom. I just nod my head and tell him he is absolutely right. This is going to be the hardest two weeks of my life. I put my head back and just listen to music and try to rest. The next two weeks are going to be hectic, and I need to get some focus. At least the play I am in is a loss of love. I have the greatest inspiration now truly feeling what is like to have your truest not near you. She is my muse and now drives me to do even better. I want to make them as proud of me as I am of them. I know only one person that can help me right now that I trust.