Dark and Light

Chapter 25

"Robert this is beautiful! I can't believe you did all of this for me! Thank you." I kiss his cheek excited. "You're welcome Bri. Had to help you celebrate some how. Especially after the way it was ruined for you last evening. I feel bad he took all the focus off of you after you worked so hard." He smiles at me kindly. "He leave?" I question him. I have no idea why I'm so comfortable with him. I always felt I would be if I met him. Weird I know. "To the best of my knowledge he did. I may have told him that he needed to. After I let him know exactly how I feel about him. May have also been a couple of mentions of me wanting to kill him." He looks over the ocean. Doing the RDJ grin I've seen a million times. Sweet of him to be protective of a woman he barely knows. "Aud?" He asks with an eyebrow raised. "Heartbroken." I sigh. He puts his arm around me. "It'll get better. Appears she has Bradley to help her cope." He points his head towards them. They do look rather cozy. "He's really a good man, but I know her heart always aches for Tom. She won't ever get over this I fear. He's to her what I always wanted. Her Chris." My voice sad. "Let's be hopeful Sabrina. Either she gets over it or he straightens out right?" He sighs. "I hope to all the heavens he straightens out. For her sake. The both of theirs to be honest. I want so much for them to have what we have. Your wife is incredible by the way." I say as Robbie wraps me in tighter. "She truly is. You would seriously still support it? Wow. Better person than me." He laughs. "What ever is going to make her happy I'll be behind her a hundred percent Robbie. She's one of the dearest people to my soul." I sigh over looking the ocean. "He just got drunk and stupid right?" Robbie turns to me. "Been there. F*cked up royally. Multiple times at that. A lot of people have. I know he loves her. But he's scared because of everything that has happened to him. Self medicating because he's too scared to deal with his own emotions." We meet eyes. His face full of shock when he hears me say that. It's terms used often but most don't really know the meaning. They have never really lived it. "You're right. A lot of us have been there. I have a feeling you and I know better than some. Sucks being the better person though right?" He gets a look of understanding. He puts both arms around me now. Hugging me tight. "Mine weren't on broadcast for the world to see. That had to suck." Putting my head on his shoulder. "It did. But, that's how my world changed. We all have our rock bottoms. That was mine. How old?" He asks "When I stopped lying to myself? I was thirty two. Clo was four. She was there to pick me up at the place. Wearing this cute little dress. Smiling so big. My mom got me a build a bear she wanted. So I could give it to her. We framed it like I was in school. Learning to be a better mom. Which was true. Most awful moment of my life? When Ma told me not to make her choose between Clo and I when I got there. Because she would choose her. Awful moment. My Mom never laid down the line with me like that. It sucked, but it's also the best thing she ever did. When I walked out those doors? Never looked back. I kept moving forward. Nothing and no one owned me after. It's hard with bi polar and the trauma that came out when I started being clear. Sh*t I never told anyone about. Not even Ma knows everything. Most women don't talk about it. We're made to feel like it's our fault. But the work? It's what I had to do. Break the cycle. Because I'd rather die then Clo to ever feel the way I did. I've never talk to anyone about all of it other than my therapist." Crying a little. "Sabrina, why are you telling me?" He asks looking at me. Confusion on his face. "Because Robbie. You get it. That and you're one of the reasons I fought so hard. You did it, so I knew I could. This? All of this wouldn't be happening if I hadn't watched you change your life." I tug at his lapel. "You became the godfather of the movies I love so much. I would have never gone on to fight for my dream if I hadn't seen you own yours. When you were wearing my tie and suit at the club? That moment? That was everything coming full circle. I always wanted to say thank you. This is it. So thank you. You Robert Downey Jr are the true driving force behind Topher. Just don't tell anyone else." I put my head on his shoulder. Giggling slightly. "Well f*ck me." He snickers. "Nope. Not going to happen." I laugh loudly. He lets me go. His face in mine, his hands on my cheeks. "You keep rocking it Sabrina. I'm going to always have your back. Tons of free sh*t though right?" He smiles as he kisses my head. "I will always have yours Robbie. And anything you want. Anything you ever need I got you. You're my f*cking hero. You saved my life. I'm blessed that I got to tell you. That I'm alive to." I whisper. "Kid, paths meet for a reason. You just helped me keep going. Love you-" I stop him. "If you say three thousand I'll break down sobbing right now. So don't." I laugh. "Another time then." He cracks up.