Hate that I love you

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(Includes self harm, if you don't like it then Skip this chapter)

•Rachel's pov•

I woke up, I looked around and saw I was still in my room. I got up and walked to my bathroom. I looked at my reflection I was a mess and had tear stains on my cheeks. I quickly jumped into the shower to freshen up.

I got out of the shower , blow dried my hair, and then put my cloths on. (Outfit above)
I walked out into the kitchen to grab something to eat when I saw a note.

Dear Rachel,
I'm sorry I just couldn't face you. I'm breaking up with you, we've been fighting and I know you would rather be with Finn. You don't know the real me, I'm a prostitute. I'm not proud of it but it makes me a lot of money.
Love, Brody

I stared at the note and re-read it a couple of times. I can't believe I dated him! I sunk to the ground and started to cry again.

Was I not worth it? Am I not pretty enough? Was I too fat? I'm not worth him or anybody.

I got up and wiped my tears away. I ran to the bathroom and stuck two fingers down my throat trying to empty any food that was in me. After getting all of the food I had left in my body, I grabbed my razor.

I took the blades out and made four cuts on each wrist, and 4 cuts on each leg. I heard my phone ring but I didn't get it, I wasn't finished just yet. I started to make more cuts on my arms,wrists, and legs.

I heard someone come barging through the front door but I didn't care right now. I heard a voice call my name and I knew it was Finn. I started to cry more and let the pain rush through my body.

I picked up the razor again to make more cuts. I started to get dizzy, I dropped the razor and I heard someone kick the door down. Before I completely blacked out I heard one thing.

F: STAY WITH ME I LOVE YOU!

Then everything went black...