Hate that I love you

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•Finns pov•

(Before he found Rachel)

I was walking back home from Rachel's, when I realized I forgot my wallet there. Whatever I'll get it later.

I got into my moms place and decided to go onto my laptop and look for an apartment. After a good 40 minutes I found a place next to Rachel's! It was a 3 bedroom place, with a bathroom, updated kitchen, large Dining room, and a finished basement.

I really liked the place so I checked when they were going to have an open house. Luckily they had one more open house tomorrow! It was now a reasonable time to get my wallet seeing it was now 1 in the after noon. I called Rachel to ask if I could come over but she didn't answer.

Rachel always answers her phone so I was getting suspicious. I needed my wallet now and Rachel gave me her key so I walked to her house. I knocked on the door and she didn't answer.

I got my key out and opened the door. Her place looked messier then I saw it before I left. I heard loud sobs coming from her bathroom. I ran to the door and banged on it. I heard metal drop on the ground, I knew she was self harming so I busted the door down.

She looked so pale, almost dead. I ran to her and saw her about to close her eyes. I couldn't loose her not now.

F: STAY WITH ME I LOVE YOU!

It was no use she closed her eyes and they wouldn't open. I got a bunch of towels and applied pressure to her cuts so the bleeding would stop. After I got them all wrapped I called 9-1-1 and told them Rachel's address.

When the paramedics arrived they wouldn't let me some with her! I ran outside and got into a taxi. I told the man the hospitals address. After about 10 minutes of driving we arrived.

I took money out of my wallet and gave it to the driver not caring how much I gave him. I ran into the hospital and looked around, I saw a bunch of people with blood shot eyes. I walked up to the receptionist hoping Rachel would be alright.

F: Rachel Berry?
Re: Relation?
F: Close family friend.
Re: I'm sorry but she isn't aloud any visitors right now.

I nodded and walked into the waiting room with the rest of the other people. I sat down and started to get bored. I realized the glee family has no clue about this! I called all of them just to inform them.

Kurt,Burt,Santana, and my mom are on there way down but are still busy from work. I got up and grabbed a magazine and started to flip through the pages.

•3 hours later•

D: Rachel Berry?

By now Kurt,Burt,Santana, and my mom were here. We all got up and walked to the doctor. She gave us a weird look but continued to talk.

D: Ok, well it seems Rachel has lost a lot of blood. Who was the one who wrapped the towel around her cuts and applied pressure?

F: Me.
D: Good job. You saved her life. If you didn't do that she could have slipped into a coma. Rachel is unconscious, we stopped the bleeding and stitched them all up. It seems Rachel had no food what so ever in her system, we would like someone to make sure she eats so she doesn't become anorexic.

F: I'll do it.
K: Are you sure?
F: Yes, can we see her?
D: One at a time.

C: Finn you should see her first.
F: *nods*

I walked into her room and she looked so lifeless. I walked up to her bed and grabbed her hand. I didn't know what to say,there was nothing to say.

F: I promise I will always be there for you.

I stood up and left. I walked into the waiting room and Kurt went into Rachel's room. I looked at the ground and stated to cry. My mom ran up to me and hugged me.

I should have been there. I should be the one in the hospital bed. Rachel doesn't deserve this. Why her?