Amoung the prayer flags

A letter to a monk 2

My loving and beloved Yeshe

In my current life today was with my reiki master and I went window shopping. But at the second shop I came across the books of tantra and karma sutra and saw the images and they were exactly what we did in our time. That and then I saw Tibetan stuff and I had a flashback to our relationship. I started to blush and shawna my reiki master noticed. My reiki master and I had to have a long talk. Apparently your teachings made me a spiritual person and according to my reiki master, shawna, told me that I achieved enlightenment and that I am only human.

I remember that after the miscarriage from the rapist I was able to to meditate and practice those poses in that book you gave me from Qin. I spent all morning practicing the poses. Yes I was well enough. I cannot wait to see you my beloved so I can try the poses. Though I felt sorry for the fetus that was gone. He would have made a fine monk but I was selfish.  When you came back from communal lunch you gave some and we had a deep philosophical conversation and I brought up the baby and you came up to me and said that he bring negative thoughts and harmful behaviour if I kept him that it was going to bring bad karma and that reminder of the thug I was with. I finished my lunch told you to come to the bed and you embraced me and kissed me. I told you I have a treat for you. I laid over you and so we could kiss eachother. I reached underneath my hips and fooled around until you got hard. I pulled up my robe but not exposing my womanhood and you fished yours up. I could feel your hardness enter me and let you explore the front of my body.

"Nebo, my love, you mind if i exolore your breasts with my hands?"

I said yes. Those boney hands of yours cupped my breasts and teased my nipples. You asked what pose this was kissing me and I said the plank. I got the idea from one of the book from Qin.

You asked for a tantric pose  I kneeled and I said for you to kneel and embrace me. When our bodies touched I against felt your hardness. We kissedsndvstay in the this pose kissing and embracing for an hour. I laid down and and let you kiss my crown, third eye, throat, heart, lower chest, lower belly and then my womanhood (the root) and said your name, Yeshe, with passion. You gently stroked my cheek and ask if I would like going to communal dinner. I yes but only if we feed eachother and show affection to eachotherandcsit in your lap.  You said that would be wonderful.

Then dinner was sorta romanic being in your lap, feed eachother and kissed. I could see that the others looked at us with judgement and disgust. The only thing that care about is you teach me how live and love in a spiritual way. Then you asked me something I dreaded... martial arts training. I had a flash back to Tashi and how he beat me. Choke up i said that no and that I rather life in peace. You kissed me and sad that is a wise choice. But I couldn't help but cry.

"We will do meditations instead." You said trying to comfort me. I kissed you and walked back to our Quarters and thought about everything. I was foolish to leave and have that affair with the idiot. You came back and told me that I made a mistake and that it didn't take away any of your love... if anything you loved me even more.