Jahseh O
"What are you doing here?" I asked when I opened my front door to discover Stokeley.
"Can we talk? All the bullshit put aside?" He asked. He looked upset and stressed out.
"Yeah," I sighed and opened the door to let him in.
He walked in and seated himself on the couch immediately. I tied my robe and took a seat across from him. "What's going on?"
"You haven't told me anything about the gender reveal. I found out from Jarad and I feel like that's unfair of you to do. This baby is both of ours."
"Yeah, you're right." I explained. "I haven't told anyone about the gender reveal except Ryan and Jarad because I wanted the gender to be a surprise for both of us."
"Okay, I didn't know that. But you still could have told me," he stated.
I nodded my head, "is that all?"
"Uh yeah.... Yeah I guess." He frowned.
"Just say it I know you have something to say," I looked at him impatiently. I was in the middle of going over some paper work and I need to finish so I can get to bed.
"I miss you," he admitted.
"I don't know what you want me to say."
"Anything."
"I learned my lesson... loving you," I confessed. "When I look at you I remember all the lies and all the times you made me cry and feel like I wasn't loved. I gave my all to you, my love was real. But I didn't really feel like you loved me."
"I can change."
"I don't know... I mean you played with my heart and my feelings so I don't know that I could even be with you. I might not feel the same way anymore."
"I know I played with you so much.."
"And I told you before my heart is not to be played with, you still played me," I explained. "Over and over."
"Jahseh Im sorry. What can I do to prove myself to you," he asked.
"There's nothing you can do, it's just a wait and see kind of thing," I explained. "We will see how shit goes but I'm not trying to rush and get back together. If it happens it happens."
"Alright," he agreed. "Well when's the next appointment I want to go to all of the appointments and everything."
"Uhm in two weeks that's when we find out the gender," I explained. "But Ryan is going too so-"
"That's fine, I don't really care I just want to be there," he stated. "I'm fine with you and Ryan being friends I shouldn't have even over reacted about it in the first place."
"Yeah you shouldn't have," I agreed. "But the past is the past let's just move on."
