AT YOUR SERVICE

24. Plans

Jimin's POV

The steam of the hot water makes the whole room foggy but helps clear my head enough so I can think through all my muddled thoughts. I step into the shower and let the water hit my body. The rest of my haze seems to disappear under the boiling stream.

Ever since she's been back, I can't help but to feel uneasy. I hate that she's so close but yet so far away. I want her with me, I want things to go back to how they were.I want to run up to her and take her in my arms but how can I do that when she doesn't want me? She keeps pushing me away whenever I try to talk to her, I can't get close enough for her to listen to me. Being with her in the elevator left me feeling like she's even afraid to be in the same room with me alone. But, why? Was I that horrible to her that it's left a bad imprint of me in her memory? Am I really that bad?

If she wants to move on then I guess there's not much I can do it about it...for now. But I don't want her out of my life. Having her nearby during work isn't enough. I crave her company, her affection, her. I just miss her so much. I can't believe I let things get this bad. I completely underestimated her. I'm so used to getting what I want that I didn't prepare for this to happen. I didn't expect her to get this upset and completely walk away. I'm usually the one that ends things, not the other way around and now that I've been rejected, I'm not sure what to do. All I know is, I have to win her over again. I just have to. I know I can but I have to figure out how to get close to her and go from there.

My thoughts are interrupted when there's a knock at the bathroom door.

"Jimin-ah? Are you in there?" Comes from the hallway. It sounds like Tae's voice. How the hell did he get in here?

"Yea. What?" I call back.

"Just wondering where you were. You didn't answer me all day."

No shit. I'm not really in the mood to talk to anyone, so why not just leave me alone instead of looking for me?

"I'll be out soon." I say instead of what I really want to say. The last thing I want right now is to start an argument with him. I have more important things to worry about.

I finish my shower and reluctantly get out and dressed before coming out into my room. I haven't felt the need or want to be around people lately so having anyone in my room makes me feel even more uneasy.

"What did you need?" I ask when I leave the bathroom as I finish towel drying my hair, not even looking at him.

"Are you ok? You just seem, I don't know, off I guess? Is everything alright?" He asks. I finally turn to look at him, worry is lacing his facial features.

"I'm fine, Tae."

"Are you sure or are you just saying that?" He presses.

"I'm fine." I repeat.

"Is it...is it because she's here?" He asks quietly. I sigh and turn away from him again.

"I said I'm fine. Now, please?" I motion to the door.

"Ok, I guess you don't wanna talk." He says as he starts to get up from where he's sitting at the edge of my bed. He makes it to the door before he stops and turns to me. "Just don't forget the team dinner. You can't skip it." Fuck. I forgot all about that.

"Fine." I mumble. Now I have to figure out how to get out of this.

"I'm serious. You have to show up." He says as if he's reading my thoughts.

"I said fine Tae. Now please leave." I'm losing my patience now. He doesn't say a word and walks out of the room finally leaving me alone.

How the hell do I get out of this dinner now? I completely forgot about it and the last thing I want right now is to be in a room with her and all the other staff, too. As much as I want to see her, I know things will be awkward with our conversation from before. I don't want to make things weird and uncomfortable for the members either but if I don't go, I'll never hear the end of it. Not just from Namjoon but the members too. I guess I have no choice but to go. I just hope to God her and Jungkook aren't parading their relationship around. I don't know if I'll be able to control myself. If I go, I won't want to drink in case I say something stupid while I'm tipsy but I don't think I'll be able to handle being around them without some alcohol in my body.