AT YOUR SERVICE

31. Breaking Down Walls

Jungkook's POV

"Jungkookie? I brought you food. Open up, you have to eat." Hobi is lightly knocking at my door. I haven't left my room all day. I don't have the energy for anything, much less eating. It's the last thing on my priorities right now.

"It's no use, he's not answering. He doesn't want to talk to us." I can hear Hobi talking to whoever else is with him behind that door.

"I'm worried. This isn't like him." I hear Tae's voice next.

"Yeah well it's not like he's ever been hurt by someone he was in love with before. And neither have you so how would you know how you'd react until it happens?" Jin's there too. Great. I guess everyone knows now.

"Maybe we can get one of the managers with a key to check on him?" Tae compromises.

"We can't. They'd ask questions and we'd expose his relationship. The last thing we need is to get them in trouble too. The staff can't know about their relationship. What if they work things out and they fire y/n and she has to go back to America? Then what? He's gonna be heartbroken all over again." Jin, always the voice of reason.

"Oh, right. I forgot it was supposed to be a secret." says Taehyung.

"Yah! Pabo! Did you say anything to anyone?!" Jin's voice raises ever so slightly.

"I'm forgetful, not stupid!"

"Sometimes I really wonder." I can hear the eyeroll in Jin hyungs voice. For the first time all day, I upturned my lips in a small smile.

"Stop bickering already. You're worse than children." chimes Hobi. "Jungkookie, I'm gonna leave this bag on the handle. Please eat. We love you." he calls again. I hear him shuffling them away from the door, Jin hyung and Taehyungie still arguing amongst themselves.

I don't make a move to get out of bed until I hear their doors close down the hall. I still wait a few minutes and once I decide it's safe, I finally drag my body out of bed and towards my door. My body is stiff. I don't even know how long I've been in the same position. I feel like I'm dragging cinder blocks down the few steps to the door. I slowly open it, trying not to make much noise in case they try to ambush me. I grab the bag and quickly close the door again. I set the food on the table and return to bed, not even looking at what they brought. Food is the last thing I want to worry about right now. Just the thought of eating makes me want to vomit.

I lay back down and grab my phone again and start to type a message to y/n for what feels like the millionth time today. I need to talk to her, I need to understand what went wrong. Why did she need space? Why couldn't she talk to me about what was going on? I thought we were ok so what the hell could have happened in between the time we went to bed the night before and when I woke up. She didn't sleep all night so something must have been weighing heavy on her mind. But what could that something be and why was it the reason it tore us apart?

As much as I want to believe we were ok, I know we weren't. I felt it. She was so tense all the time, always in her own head and it felt like she was always on edge. Her smile hadn't reached her eyes in a long time. Thinking back on it, I feel like it started when she tried to fix things with Jimin the first time. Could something have happened then? I didn't want to project my insecurities onto him and whatever was going on between them, it didn't exactly end that well last time I did it, but I couldn't help to feel like something was there. Maybe something happened, maybe he said something. She did tell me they argued but she never elaborated on what it was about. What could he have said to her that set her off for her to go off at him and basically run from his room?