AT YOUR SERVICE

26. Regret

The driver takes us around back first and drops Jimin off, much to his displeasure. He kisses me one last time before finally exiting the vehicle and going inside through the VIP entrance. I get dropped off at the front of the building and i enter through the main doors. As soon as I make it to my room, I take my clothes off and hop in the shower. I thoroughly wash my hair and scrub my scalp to make sure the smell of weed doesn't linger. I replay the last hour in my head, thinking about Jimin and how amazing it felt to be with him again. He knows my body so well, knowing exactly what to do to send me over the edge in no time at all.

I snap myself out of my daydream and hurriedly get out of the shower and dressed into my pajamas. I put my clothes from tonight in a shopping bag so they don't stink up the rest of my clothes and throw the bag in my suitcase before closing it. I get in bed and pull the covers over me, attempting sleep but not even five minutes later, I hear a key card swiping and the door lock giving a low beep. I hear shuffling into the room and figure it's Lily and Jungkook, it sounds like more than one person.

"Babe?" comes Jungkook's voice.

"Hmm?" I let out and slowly turn to look at him. He walks over to me and sits down on my bed next to me.

"Hey. Are you ok? You left without saying anything, I was worried about you." He caresses my face and pushes my hair out of the way. He genuinely looks worried, his big doe eyes taking in all my features.

"Yeah, I'm ok. I just drank too much and started to not feel that well so I left. I didn't want to pull you away so I didn't say anything."

"Lily said you were throwing up? Are you ok? You always drink with us and I've never seen you sick before."

"I just didn't really eat all day because I was so busy. I drank too much on an empty stomach and I was just so nervous that I couldn't eat there either. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have overdone it. But I'm ok now. The shower really helped."

"Baby you need to eat. You can't go all day without eating. Are you hungry now? I can get you something."

"No, it's fine. Really, I'm ok. I'm just really sleepy now. I want to go to bed. I'm gonna stay in here tonight. I have an early morning and I'll be up before you. I don't wanna wake you."

"Ok. Text me when you wake up, ok? And please eat all your meals. You can't overwork yourself and then not eat. It's not healthy baby."

"I know. It won't happen again." I smile at him. He leans down and presses a kiss to my lips before getting up.

"Goodnight baby. I love you." My heart sinks at his words but all I can do is say it back so he doesn't think something is wrong.

"I love you." My heart pounds hard in my chest as I let the words out. He smiles at me again, says goodnight to Lily and walks out of our room.

As soon as the door shuts, I feel the tears welling in my eyes. Lily gives me a heatfelt look and comes to sit on my bed. I sit up and bring my gaze to hers as I let my tears fall.

"What the fuck did I do?" I sob. She scoots closer and takes me in her arms, hugging me as my body shakes with my cries.

"What happened between you and Jimin? Before, I mean." She asks quietly.

"So much. He and I had an arrangement before. We were fuck buddies. But then I caught feelings and I told him about it and he said he didn't want to ruin what we had. Then I found out he was having sex with other people too. Which granted, we weren't exclusive or anything but whenever he would even see me talking to someone, he'd get all possessive and jealous and freak out but I couldn't say anything to him about the other women. So I ended things before they went on tour."